Tired of it

So i just lost a friend today- or more they lost me. Ryan the "God" of the MT (morning table= table me and most of my friends and some other ppl. sit at in the morning before the bell rings at school) just yet again exploded on me for no reason. I'm tired of it, I'm pissed, and I can't stand it anymore. I don't feel like doing anything anymore right now, just work and that's it. It might seem like i'm all happy on the outside but i'm really not right now. At least i have Dev, Rayy and everyone else by my side. I love you guys to death!