Ho Ho, Steameeeh

Okay, so I forced myself outta bed around 10:30ish this morning. Turns out I stayed up half the night last night (try until like 4:30 in the morning) because I was afraid to leave my mom alone. My dad slept in the guest room, which is the room all the way at the end of the hallway upstairs. I wished he would have slept on the couch (like my mom has had to because he snores so fucking loud when he drinks that I can even hear him from my bedroom...-_-). I mean, what if my mom needed to go to the ER and when she called us we couldn't hear?? So I sat at the top of the stairs with my pillow, curled in a ball. Hammy came up later and sat next to me, so at least I had some company I guess.

Mom fell asleep, and I didn't wanna be grumpy at Dev's, so I decided to go back into my room, my back was killing me from being in a ball for hours anyways. I get most of my sleep in the morning, from 5-10ish, so I'm sorta kinda well rested....

Attempted to clean my room and then packed some things to go to Dev's. I brought her 4 Campbell's Chicken Noodle Soup cans because I know how much she likes them, and come Chewy Bars. I know how she's trying to lose weight, and they're only 90 calories. They seem to give me a little energy boost too, so I brought some over to try (these were chocolate cherry ones) and she liked them, so I gave her the rest in the box. Mom got me some chocolate, and smores one's Devvy Chan, so don't worry I have breakfast.

Watched the movie To Kill A Mocking Bird. I thought it was pretty good, and it was in black and white, and I like black and white movies. I've gotta say, for those who watched the movie A Separate Piece, the acting, effects, and just plain movie was a hell of a lot better even though it was in black and white.

I'm gonna look at the question's again, I think you can answer at least some of them. Otherwise, I wanna read the book since I liked the movie.

Devvy Chan and I were gonna walk today, but it was tooooooooooo hot (notice the title), so we watched the movie Stick It (which was good) and Bring It On (which, well I dunno I didn't really like, I'm not one for cheerleaders). I played with her dog, and went home around 7 with my mom to water plants and watch The Ruins. Zak said it sucked, but Mom and I liked it. She said the ending in the book was different from the ending in the movie though.

It was weird while watching the movie. Well, when we had to pause it so mom could get more yogurt. She suddenly started going off on how proud of me she was, and how she was so sorry about her getting sick a lot, and started crying, saying that she was selfish she had children, and how much she loved me. I got really scared because she kinda sounded....well suicidal. Not that she would kill herself, just that it the way she was saying all this sounded like she was gonna...die soon. Like she knew her time was short. I dunno if my mom is gonna make it to my graduation, and I always feel guilty for wanting her to live more. She's always in so much pain. I don't think any of you see it, but she's in a lot of pain, and she has been ever since she was a kid. I mean, her back molars are cracked from grinding them down so much in pain....and all the meds and shots she has to take and get. She shouldn't deserve to live like that. Nobody should.

My laptop can't seem to find the wireless Internet connection I've been using for the past two days. I'm hoping that if I connect it downstairs, and then restart it might help. If not then this will defiantly suck.

I heard it was gonna be even hotter tomorrow, and dad want's me to golf. Of course he does, on the day where it's gonna be above 90. Well fuck that, I'm not getting my sleep deprived ass outta bed at 7 in the morning to practice for his dream (for those of you that don't know, it's making the team...). I'll go to the range tomorrow, but I'm not gonna golf when the weather is in the 90's unless I have to. Our cleaning lady is coming over tomorrow anyways, so mom will have to take me in the afternoon (when it will be hotter than hell out) to the range. But hey, I'd rather do that then get up early and golf.

Going to see the movie Wanted tomorrow with my Mom, JJ, Grammy, and Uncle Scott. He got a new Jeep Wrangler, so I finally get to see it and ride in it! *squeals* I'm so excited!! I like those types of cars. Well, gonna go to bed, and if I can't sleep, I'll attempt and my summer reading book.

Oh yeah, got my first pay check yesterday!!! It's so cool!

ily.

Not exactly a good day

So most of the day JJ and I watched movies. We first watched the Corps Bride and ate Doritos and then after about an hour we went back down to the 'lower level' (a joke since our basement is finished) and watched Ice Age. I can't believe they're coming out with a third one...I didn't think the second Ice Age wasn't that good, one was enough. Disney likes to make a lot of series with three movies in it. Like Cinderella, Pirates of the Caribbean, Shiloh, and now Ice Age.

Oh yeah I get the ward for having Stupid Parents! Yay!

Why do you ask? Let me explain:

MOM:

Today while making cookies she noticed a hard chunk of whatever it was in the mixer so she reached her hand in to get it out....while the mixer was on.... Then when we tried to turn it off she nearly burn her hand on a hot cookie sheet and turned the mixer up another notch.

DAD:

We're having the guy that helped my dad make the bar in the 'lower level' since he's never seen it actually finished. He's actually one of my dad's friends and lives next door to his parents I believe. Anyways, he's going around all crazy trying to cleaning everything down there (which I must say is funny to watch) and he was cleaning the wood with what he thinks is Orange Pledge. It wasn't Orange Pledge...it was an orange bottle of Bug Spray. Bug Spray + Wood= Bad. Bad meaning it will ruin the finish.

Yeah.

So what just happened right now. Last night Peaches told me that Ryan's grandma had died. I felt bad for him. So i finally worked up the courage when he came back on idle to say this:

XashXwasntXhereX (8:36:35 PM): hellos
Cnaeus Dane (8:36:41 PM): bueno
XashXwasntXhereX (8:36:43 PM): hey i know it's a sad topic but i just wanted to say I'm sorry about your grandma
XashXwasntXhereX (8:36:52 PM): i bet she was a real great person
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XashXwasntXhereX (8:37:49 PM): i just wanted to let you know that I cared is all...sorry...

*sigh*

Was that wrong to say? I dunno but just now I texted him: I'm sorry for bringing it up. I just wanted to let you know that I care, I thought it would be nice to know.

Was that wrong too?

I just want to let him know that he's not completely alone. I know he has Peaches and like other family but lots of times it's good to know you have friends that care too. Right?

I feel kind of guilty for making him sad, mad, and whatever the heck else he's feeling but my reasons are okay for saying that I hope.

Oh yeah more bad things:

My Word 2007 isn't working, we've tried everything we can think of. So I reinstalled Word 2003 but it tells me I have to reinstall it again even though 2 seconds ago i just did...I'll work with it later...

I'm typing up the second chappie of my book after this on our home computer. It's not finished yet, but while you're waiting you can read my book's blog. It's listed in the Friends Blogs list is you didn't notice. I'll make up another post tonight too I think.

Well that's all for now!

Tired of it

So i just lost a friend today- or more they lost me. Ryan the "God" of the MT (morning table= table me and most of my friends and some other ppl. sit at in the morning before the bell rings at school) just yet again exploded on me for no reason. I'm tired of it, I'm pissed, and I can't stand it anymore. I don't feel like doing anything anymore right now, just work and that's it. It might seem like i'm all happy on the outside but i'm really not right now. At least i have Dev, Rayy and everyone else by my side. I love you guys to death!