Mom is coming home from the hospital even though they wanted her to stay. She has to go back to the hospital to get an ultra sound on her heart tomorrow.
Now I'm just waiting for her to come home.
ily.
Showing posts with label scared. Show all posts
Showing posts with label scared. Show all posts
Monday, November 2, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
He's A Supa Freak, Supa Freak!
Woke up and went to The Range today instead of 2-Club because it's free there for me.
It wasn't very crowded. In the end there was only two guys left when I was just about done hitting my second bucket of balls.
When the guy behind me was leaving he asked me how long I had been playing and told me that I had a really nice swing and to keep it up.
So, ya know, of course I felt pretty damn good. =)
I couldn't finish hitting the whole bucket of balls though because my arm was hurting really bad. When I was leaving the older guy (he was like, maybe 50? =/) that was hitting further down suddenly just swung at the golf ball and turned around and went:
"Oh my good! Look, look at that!"
It was a terrible shot but I told him it was good anyways and the rest continued as followed:
"Ya see, I knew it would be a good shot! It's just cuz you're such a pretty girl and all and that good karma just effects people! Have long you been playing golf?"
"Since I was 8."
"Ah, wow it really shows!" *stares at me rubbing my arm*
"Yeah, I just gotta get this arm fixed and I'll be top dog on the team."
"Oh, ya hurt your arm? What's wrong with it?"
I told him how nobody knows for sure, and that it could be from typing and golf and all that.
*claps* "Oh yeah, yeah, that makes sense! It could also be because you've been playing golf for so long, which sucks because you're such a pretty girl! But I bought all of these tapes and they taught me this really good type of swing- oh! Here! Lemme show you!" *grabs a club out of his bag and swings*
He kept continuing on about the swing and then he shoved the golf club in my hands and was like "Let me see your grip! No, see, you're too tense! Take you arm and relax it!" And he started grabbing my right arm changing it around and then tried to stand behind me.
So I swung the club and grabbed my car keys and tried to make a move to go but he stepped towards me and was like "So where does your arm hurt?"
*holds out arm a little* "It hurts here, and up my arm. And I really should go now to ice it-"
"You mean here?" *grabs arm and runs finger up and down it*
"Yeah, yeah, I really need to go now-"
He then went and grabbed his golf club and hit another golf ball and went "YES! That's the swing ya gotta do! Nice shot huh?!" *holds out hand for a high five*
So I went to quickly tap it and run and he grabbed my hand a little bit and took a deep breath and went "Such a pretty girl" really softly.
"I NEED TO GO NOW! BYE."
I grabbed my stuff and started leaving and he kept talking and almost kinda following me so I took out my cell phone and pretended to be talking to someone. I was so freaked I didn't even want to stay and tell the owner and high tailed out of the parking lot at 45 mph.
At first I though he had a mental problem or something like that because he was talking really fast and somewhat shaking. But after all the pretty girl comments and staring at my chest and legs and trying to grab me shit, he screamed pedophile.
He even had like, those classic pedophile glass.
And what was even scarier was that I was there ALONE with him.
I drove to my Grammy's house down the road and told her everything and she said if I ever wanted to go to there again to bring her and that she'll bring her gun.
Dad told me that if he's there the next time I go back to tell the owner.
Honestly, I think I'll waste my money at 2-Club. I feel like he fucking stripped me with his eyes.
ily.
It wasn't very crowded. In the end there was only two guys left when I was just about done hitting my second bucket of balls.
When the guy behind me was leaving he asked me how long I had been playing and told me that I had a really nice swing and to keep it up.
So, ya know, of course I felt pretty damn good. =)
I couldn't finish hitting the whole bucket of balls though because my arm was hurting really bad. When I was leaving the older guy (he was like, maybe 50? =/) that was hitting further down suddenly just swung at the golf ball and turned around and went:
"Oh my good! Look, look at that!"
It was a terrible shot but I told him it was good anyways and the rest continued as followed:
"Ya see, I knew it would be a good shot! It's just cuz you're such a pretty girl and all and that good karma just effects people! Have long you been playing golf?"
"Since I was 8."
"Ah, wow it really shows!" *stares at me rubbing my arm*
"Yeah, I just gotta get this arm fixed and I'll be top dog on the team."
"Oh, ya hurt your arm? What's wrong with it?"
I told him how nobody knows for sure, and that it could be from typing and golf and all that.
*claps* "Oh yeah, yeah, that makes sense! It could also be because you've been playing golf for so long, which sucks because you're such a pretty girl! But I bought all of these tapes and they taught me this really good type of swing- oh! Here! Lemme show you!" *grabs a club out of his bag and swings*
He kept continuing on about the swing and then he shoved the golf club in my hands and was like "Let me see your grip! No, see, you're too tense! Take you arm and relax it!" And he started grabbing my right arm changing it around and then tried to stand behind me.
So I swung the club and grabbed my car keys and tried to make a move to go but he stepped towards me and was like "So where does your arm hurt?"
*holds out arm a little* "It hurts here, and up my arm. And I really should go now to ice it-"
"You mean here?" *grabs arm and runs finger up and down it*
"Yeah, yeah, I really need to go now-"
He then went and grabbed his golf club and hit another golf ball and went "YES! That's the swing ya gotta do! Nice shot huh?!" *holds out hand for a high five*
So I went to quickly tap it and run and he grabbed my hand a little bit and took a deep breath and went "Such a pretty girl" really softly.
"I NEED TO GO NOW! BYE."
I grabbed my stuff and started leaving and he kept talking and almost kinda following me so I took out my cell phone and pretended to be talking to someone. I was so freaked I didn't even want to stay and tell the owner and high tailed out of the parking lot at 45 mph.
At first I though he had a mental problem or something like that because he was talking really fast and somewhat shaking. But after all the pretty girl comments and staring at my chest and legs and trying to grab me shit, he screamed pedophile.
He even had like, those classic pedophile glass.
And what was even scarier was that I was there ALONE with him.
I drove to my Grammy's house down the road and told her everything and she said if I ever wanted to go to there again to bring her and that she'll bring her gun.
Dad told me that if he's there the next time I go back to tell the owner.
Honestly, I think I'll waste my money at 2-Club. I feel like he fucking stripped me with his eyes.
ily.
Monday, June 8, 2009
I'm On Fire!
Literally.
So I'm up and trying to be all calm before golf and I decide to grill myself a burger.
So I go outside and turn on the gas and start to turn on each of the burners. I get to the last one and it's not turning on. So I keep clicking it on and off and still no dice.
Before I was annoyed enough to stop and get my mother to figure out what the hell was wrong it started up- and all the gas that was rising up from me trying to turn it on so many damn times thus, making a huge fireball hurtling towards my face.
Which caught my hair on fire.
I went running into the house yelling "Fuuuuuuuck!" and sped into my mothers bathroom to look at myself. My mom then came in and asked "How's the burger going?"
-_-
Then here eyes went really wide because I was covered in bits of burnt hair.
Lucky for me it's long enough to put up in a pony tail, so only what was hanging down got burnt.
And I don't have to pluck my brows anymore either.
My eyelashes are shorter though...
I also had to take another shower.
Burning hair does not smell good at all let me tell you.
Cyrus then came over because he wanted to give me some Gatoraid for golf today and I made him open the grill so I could cook my burger.
=p
I was really shaken by the incident though, which didn't really help with the whole 'Calm down and don't get nervous about losing your pride at golf today' plan.
Cyrus left and then I ate my burger and got dressed.
Chipped out in the backyard a bit before begging mom to take me to the course about 45 minutes early so I could hit balls just to give myself more confidence.
Got there and in the end didn't hit balls and went straight to the league teacher. Apparently, JJ's league teed off at 2, mine had teed of at 12.
Dad fucks up the times and leagues yet again.
JJ's league was lower than mine, so I didn't need to be nervous about sucking anymore. If I did you couldn't tell.
I just couldn't seem to hit my 3 wood- or any other woods in my bag. So I stuck to my 6 iron and pitching wedge for most of the course.
My score was average/ick. 53. =/
Which actually sort of pumps me up because if I'm shooting a 53 after being out only twice on a course (today counting as the 2nd time) my score should be kick ass once I'm out more.
After playing I met up with Jack who ran the advance league last year I believe. He was all "OMG YOU SHOULD BE IN ADVANCE WHY ARE YOU HERE?!"
I'm hoping there is at lest one other girl in the league besides me. It gets a little tiersome playing with guys all the time, plus I'm betting the guys are all older/bigger than me which plays down on my nerves a tad. Which in turn fucks up my game and we go back to the whole pride thing.
Spanish and English exam tomorrow then heading over to The Range to turn in my application and talk to Andrew (guy that works there).
I lost my wallet today too which is bad because it has my license in it.
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I swear it's somewhere here in the house, but now I'm getting worried I might have dropped it somewhere. =x
Also:
This little guy was in front of our garage.
His name is it Tyler Toad because I'm all badass and creative like that.
=p
ily.
So I'm up and trying to be all calm before golf and I decide to grill myself a burger.
So I go outside and turn on the gas and start to turn on each of the burners. I get to the last one and it's not turning on. So I keep clicking it on and off and still no dice.
Before I was annoyed enough to stop and get my mother to figure out what the hell was wrong it started up- and all the gas that was rising up from me trying to turn it on so many damn times thus, making a huge fireball hurtling towards my face.
Which caught my hair on fire.
I went running into the house yelling "Fuuuuuuuck!" and sped into my mothers bathroom to look at myself. My mom then came in and asked "How's the burger going?"
-_-
Then here eyes went really wide because I was covered in bits of burnt hair.
Lucky for me it's long enough to put up in a pony tail, so only what was hanging down got burnt.
And I don't have to pluck my brows anymore either.
My eyelashes are shorter though...
I also had to take another shower.
Burning hair does not smell good at all let me tell you.
Cyrus then came over because he wanted to give me some Gatoraid for golf today and I made him open the grill so I could cook my burger.
=p
I was really shaken by the incident though, which didn't really help with the whole 'Calm down and don't get nervous about losing your pride at golf today' plan.
Cyrus left and then I ate my burger and got dressed.
Chipped out in the backyard a bit before begging mom to take me to the course about 45 minutes early so I could hit balls just to give myself more confidence.
Got there and in the end didn't hit balls and went straight to the league teacher. Apparently, JJ's league teed off at 2, mine had teed of at 12.
Dad fucks up the times and leagues yet again.
JJ's league was lower than mine, so I didn't need to be nervous about sucking anymore. If I did you couldn't tell.
I just couldn't seem to hit my 3 wood- or any other woods in my bag. So I stuck to my 6 iron and pitching wedge for most of the course.
My score was average/ick. 53. =/
Which actually sort of pumps me up because if I'm shooting a 53 after being out only twice on a course (today counting as the 2nd time) my score should be kick ass once I'm out more.
After playing I met up with Jack who ran the advance league last year I believe. He was all "OMG YOU SHOULD BE IN ADVANCE WHY ARE YOU HERE?!"
I'm hoping there is at lest one other girl in the league besides me. It gets a little tiersome playing with guys all the time, plus I'm betting the guys are all older/bigger than me which plays down on my nerves a tad. Which in turn fucks up my game and we go back to the whole pride thing.
Spanish and English exam tomorrow then heading over to The Range to turn in my application and talk to Andrew (guy that works there).
I lost my wallet today too which is bad because it has my license in it.
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I swear it's somewhere here in the house, but now I'm getting worried I might have dropped it somewhere. =x
Also:
This little guy was in front of our garage.
His name is it Tyler Toad because I'm all badass and creative like that.
=p
ily.
Monday, March 23, 2009
This Is Probably
Going to be one of my last post's for a while.
For about a year or probably a bit longer I have been experiencing numbing in my hand and arm, that has caused me to do simple things such as drop things and has prevented me from writing and typing.
I always thought it was because my hand had been falling asleep, that I was tired, or something.
Then some people started joking around "Ha ha, you're probably got CP from all that writing of yours you little author you!"
(For those of you who don't know, I've been filling journals and word documents with stories, novels, and little poems since 4th grade).
CP is short for carpal tunnel.
Now, I know it's terrible to self diagnose (which I tell people not to do...) but I think I might be starting to get it, or at least something.
I've gone to multiple sights, and I have been experiencing the very similar symptoms. Also, Sam last year had it, and she was talking about the same things.
Now, she was in gymnastics, golf is a way different sport, but you still put pressure on your wrist a lot.
And I type a lot as well, and my hands are always leaning against the keyboard.
I talked to my mother about it today and she felt my wrist and it hurt a bit. She said she's going to try and make a doc appointment for Friday.
It's been so frustrating because it's so hard to write simple notes. Driving class was the worst, my writing was so sloppy.
I didn't really wanna tell anyone about this though because I was afraid I would have to stop golfing and writing...
Blogging has been really hard but I just tended to ignore it because I loved doing it so much.
Bleh.
It's too hard to type now, I'm gonna go read some Huck Finn and then Cyrus is coming over cuz JJ wants him to see his room.
ily.
For about a year or probably a bit longer I have been experiencing numbing in my hand and arm, that has caused me to do simple things such as drop things and has prevented me from writing and typing.
I always thought it was because my hand had been falling asleep, that I was tired, or something.
Then some people started joking around "Ha ha, you're probably got CP from all that writing of yours you little author you!"
(For those of you who don't know, I've been filling journals and word documents with stories, novels, and little poems since 4th grade).
CP is short for carpal tunnel.
Now, I know it's terrible to self diagnose (which I tell people not to do...) but I think I might be starting to get it, or at least something.
I've gone to multiple sights, and I have been experiencing the very similar symptoms. Also, Sam last year had it, and she was talking about the same things.
Now, she was in gymnastics, golf is a way different sport, but you still put pressure on your wrist a lot.
And I type a lot as well, and my hands are always leaning against the keyboard.
I talked to my mother about it today and she felt my wrist and it hurt a bit. She said she's going to try and make a doc appointment for Friday.
It's been so frustrating because it's so hard to write simple notes. Driving class was the worst, my writing was so sloppy.
I didn't really wanna tell anyone about this though because I was afraid I would have to stop golfing and writing...
Blogging has been really hard but I just tended to ignore it because I loved doing it so much.
Bleh.
It's too hard to type now, I'm gonna go read some Huck Finn and then Cyrus is coming over cuz JJ wants him to see his room.
ily.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Hellz Yeah
My supa hero costume for spirit week tomorrow is so awesome. I can't wait until you guys see it!
It's so stupid it's epic. =p
I'll post a picture on here of me in it tomorrow.
Physics we had a lab today so we mostly messed around.
We got the lab done though!
Jess got yelled at by Pitts today because her skirt was too low. Well, at least that's what she said. If the office ladies didn't say anything, or her 1st and 2nd period teachers didn't say anything, I think it's fine.
She must have had a huge bug up her ass today, aside from the one she always has.
I keep biting my nails! ><
Oh!
Lost Asian is in my lunch!!
Who the hell is Lost Asian?
Well, there was this guy at the dance that just stood there most of the time looking completely lost, and he was Asian. So I nicknamed him Lost Asian. And now he's in my lunch!
It was so hard not to lunge at him and hug him. =p
History I took notes for section 1.
Art I worked on my scratch drawing and then someone gave me a cookie! =D
English I ate my cookie and gave Andy, Devvy Chan, and Ryan some.
They called us down for the show choir thing.
I honestly don't think they're that good. Their singing sucks and the dancing bores me.
But Mushroom head was in it!
Got home, and finished my Geometry homework and history notes for section 1 then ate dinner and went to Cyber Cafe to start on some of my Valley Voyages project.
It was fun, there was Twix Bars and hot chocolate. Zak was there though... I stayed close to Cy.
Came home, showered, showed my mom my supa hero costume, and now I'm here.
Going to bed now.
Night to all!
ily.
It's so stupid it's epic. =p
I'll post a picture on here of me in it tomorrow.
Physics we had a lab today so we mostly messed around.
We got the lab done though!
Jess got yelled at by Pitts today because her skirt was too low. Well, at least that's what she said. If the office ladies didn't say anything, or her 1st and 2nd period teachers didn't say anything, I think it's fine.
She must have had a huge bug up her ass today, aside from the one she always has.
I keep biting my nails! ><
Oh!
Lost Asian is in my lunch!!
Who the hell is Lost Asian?
Well, there was this guy at the dance that just stood there most of the time looking completely lost, and he was Asian. So I nicknamed him Lost Asian. And now he's in my lunch!
It was so hard not to lunge at him and hug him. =p
History I took notes for section 1.
Art I worked on my scratch drawing and then someone gave me a cookie! =D
English I ate my cookie and gave Andy, Devvy Chan, and Ryan some.
They called us down for the show choir thing.
I honestly don't think they're that good. Their singing sucks and the dancing bores me.
But Mushroom head was in it!
Got home, and finished my Geometry homework and history notes for section 1 then ate dinner and went to Cyber Cafe to start on some of my Valley Voyages project.
It was fun, there was Twix Bars and hot chocolate. Zak was there though... I stayed close to Cy.
Came home, showered, showed my mom my supa hero costume, and now I'm here.
Going to bed now.
Night to all!
ily.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Journey
I added my favorite songs by them on my playlist.
Take a listen!
=D
Had lots of fun with Cyrus tonight.
We watched Fantastic Four and then ate pizza and fell asleep together on the couch in the living room. =p
Tomorrow we're going to bake something for my Grammy and then visit her! =D
I'm thinking we should bake cookies, and maybe a blueberry pie (even though I don't like blueberries but she does).
Feel kinda weird....school is almost here... =(
ily.
Take a listen!
=D
Had lots of fun with Cyrus tonight.
We watched Fantastic Four and then ate pizza and fell asleep together on the couch in the living room. =p
Tomorrow we're going to bake something for my Grammy and then visit her! =D
I'm thinking we should bake cookies, and maybe a blueberry pie (even though I don't like blueberries but she does).
Feel kinda weird....school is almost here... =(
ily.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
To all my friends...
Remember:
-Everything gets worse before it gets better
-I'll always be there to make you laugh
-My mom is your mother too
-We can keep secrets
-We're just a phone call away
-If you ever need to get away I'm here
-I can't make you're life work out the way you want but I can help you live through it
-Smile even though you're sad
-It's okay to be afraid
-It's okay to cry
-Hurting yourself won't make things better
-Pills are fake happiness
-If you take your hurt out on your friends you'll drive them away
-It could always be worse
-Laugh at yourself every once in awhile
-There is always a positive side
-There is always a way out
-There is always someone that cares
-You're friends will always be there
And I'll always be with you helping you laugh under the sun.
Now smile. =)
ily.
-Everything gets worse before it gets better
-I'll always be there to make you laugh
-My mom is your mother too
-We can keep secrets
-We're just a phone call away
-If you ever need to get away I'm here
-I can't make you're life work out the way you want but I can help you live through it
-Smile even though you're sad
-It's okay to be afraid
-It's okay to cry
-Hurting yourself won't make things better
-Pills are fake happiness
-If you take your hurt out on your friends you'll drive them away
-It could always be worse
-Laugh at yourself every once in awhile
-There is always a positive side
-There is always a way out
-There is always someone that cares
-You're friends will always be there
And I'll always be with you helping you laugh under the sun.
Now smile. =)
ily.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Goin Crazy(er)
This is what the lack of a laptop brings me:
- dozens of unwatched youtube vids
- hundreds of e-mails
-millions of unread and unposted days on blogs
and a partridge in a pear tree.
yeah, feeling really crazy right now.
Ummm...lets see....
Friday no Saturday...no.....Friday- I was right the first time. Zak came over. We watched some TV and hung out in the backyard. Had loads of fun.
Saturday got up, helped dad put in the mailbox, cut the grass, went over to my Grammy's house to help her wash the windows and then golfed with my dad. On the third hole there was this dog and she was so cute and so nice and she actually liked me!! She kissed me and then turned over on the green so I could pet her tummy! ^-^ I think she had puppies recently by the way her nipples were.
Shut up don't laugh at me. I know it sounds wrong.
Today I slept in. Dad left for a golf thing and then JJ and I watched National Treasure 2. I didn't like it. Though it's not like Disney was ever good with sequels.
Helped mom when she shopped at Sam's Club because with her arm she couldn't pick up the heavy stuff like water and Gatorade. By the way she's going to the hand guy again on Monday. We're hoping that her arm cn recover fully.
Found Breaking Dawn there, lunged for it, and could barley keep my head out of it while walking around the store. When I wasn't in the book and helping my mom I noticed people staring at me a lot. I freaked out and asked mom if I had anything on my face and looked at my reflection in anything I could find. Mom says it's because I'm so beautiful. As if.
When we were in the parking lot I saw Ala!!! (spelling? Well, the Muslim god.) Seriously. This guy was decked out in a turban hat thing with a gem in the middle, and in white robes with this huge Dumbledor like beard. He looked awesome!! XD
Got Wendys, unloaded the car, read more of Breaking Dawn, ate pancakes for dinner that mom made (cuz she's awesome like that) and now I'm here still feeling insane.
I think I'm stressing about the big golf tournament tomorrow against Copley. Been in Districts 4 years in a row....they're really good....
Oh, here is the golf schedule: http://mail.google.com/mail/?ui=2&ik=70782d5f0d&realattid=f_fjqck0fv&attid=0.1&disp=inline&view=att&th=11baf2ad167dcbc6
So if you guys want to plan anything there are the days I'm doing stuff. If I have practice it usually only lasts about 3 hours or so.
Definitely not going to be able to finish Breaking Dawn tonight. Too stressed. I'll have something to read on the bus ride tomorrow I guess.
First time playing 18 holes of golf in my life. Coach told us to buy food, I was in charge of the chips. =)
Getting a 'golfers tan' too. I should consider sunblock.
Stressing stressing....need a hug and a good club to the head to knock me out.
Deep breaths now....deep breaths....
ily.
- dozens of unwatched youtube vids
- hundreds of e-mails
-millions of unread and unposted days on blogs
and a partridge in a pear tree.
yeah, feeling really crazy right now.
Ummm...lets see....
Friday no Saturday...no.....Friday- I was right the first time. Zak came over. We watched some TV and hung out in the backyard. Had loads of fun.
Saturday got up, helped dad put in the mailbox, cut the grass, went over to my Grammy's house to help her wash the windows and then golfed with my dad. On the third hole there was this dog and she was so cute and so nice and she actually liked me!! She kissed me and then turned over on the green so I could pet her tummy! ^-^ I think she had puppies recently by the way her nipples were.
Shut up don't laugh at me. I know it sounds wrong.
Today I slept in. Dad left for a golf thing and then JJ and I watched National Treasure 2. I didn't like it. Though it's not like Disney was ever good with sequels.
Helped mom when she shopped at Sam's Club because with her arm she couldn't pick up the heavy stuff like water and Gatorade. By the way she's going to the hand guy again on Monday. We're hoping that her arm cn recover fully.
Found Breaking Dawn there, lunged for it, and could barley keep my head out of it while walking around the store. When I wasn't in the book and helping my mom I noticed people staring at me a lot. I freaked out and asked mom if I had anything on my face and looked at my reflection in anything I could find. Mom says it's because I'm so beautiful. As if.
When we were in the parking lot I saw Ala!!! (spelling? Well, the Muslim god.) Seriously. This guy was decked out in a turban hat thing with a gem in the middle, and in white robes with this huge Dumbledor like beard. He looked awesome!! XD
Got Wendys, unloaded the car, read more of Breaking Dawn, ate pancakes for dinner that mom made (cuz she's awesome like that) and now I'm here still feeling insane.
I think I'm stressing about the big golf tournament tomorrow against Copley. Been in Districts 4 years in a row....they're really good....
Oh, here is the golf schedule: http://mail.google.com/mail/?ui=2&ik=70782d5f0d&realattid=f_fjqck0fv&attid=0.1&disp=inline&view=att&th=11baf2ad167dcbc6
So if you guys want to plan anything there are the days I'm doing stuff. If I have practice it usually only lasts about 3 hours or so.
Definitely not going to be able to finish Breaking Dawn tonight. Too stressed. I'll have something to read on the bus ride tomorrow I guess.
First time playing 18 holes of golf in my life. Coach told us to buy food, I was in charge of the chips. =)
Getting a 'golfers tan' too. I should consider sunblock.
Stressing stressing....need a hug and a good club to the head to knock me out.
Deep breaths now....deep breaths....
ily.
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