Remember...

Those horror movies you'd watch or still watch?

Like Scream, Halloween or Prom Night?

Do you think anybody would ever do something like that?

Just decide to kill someone for no real reason I mean.

Yeah, I wish it could never happen either.

I don't know whether it's because I was already stressed and upset from my week or if it had nothing to do with anything entirely but this story I saw on Nancy Grace disturbed me so much I almost puked.

I couldn't find the video but I did find the transcripts...:

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Breaking news in the shocking Boy Scout murder. Investigators say there could be additional arrests in the case.

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: The participants intended to kill the occupants of the home, if anyone was present.

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Four teens currently arrested in the machete hacking death of 42-year-old nurse Kimberly Cates. Kimberly Cates died of multiple stab wounds to her head, torso, arm and leg -- her 11-year-old daughter surviving, now recovering at a Boston children`s hospital.

Investigators gearing up -- multiple search warrants executed, dozens of people interviewed, as authorities search for motive and possibly additional suspects.

UNIDENTIFIED FEMALE: Christopher Gribble (ph) is charged with the most heinous crime -- murder in the first degree.

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Prosecutors say Christopher Gribble was armed with a knife and Stephen Spader had a machete. Authorities say William Marks and Quinn Glover were also armed when they entered 4 Trow Road in Mount Vernon. Kimberly Cates and her 11-year-old daughter were sleeping inside.

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: They targeted this home, essentially ran (INAUDIBLE), because it was on an isolated road.

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Gribble and Spader face three charges that include first degree murder. Prosecutors say both suspects hit Kate and her daughter with their weapons. Kimberly Cates allegedly died in her bed, while the 11-year-old suffered serious injuries.

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: She remains in the intensive care unit. It doesn`t appear that her -- her injuries are life-threatening. But that isn`t, by any means, to minimize the severity of the attack.

UNIDENTIFIED FEMALE: A sixth grade girl is brutalized.

UNIDENTIFIED MALE: The participants intended to kill the occupants of the home if anyone was present.

(END VIDEO TAPE)

GRACE: Straight out to Joe Dwinell with the "Boston Herald." Joe, I`ve just heard the disturbing news that the little 11-year-old girl`s toes were hacked off.

JOE DWINELL, REPORTER/EDITOR, "THE BOSTON HERALD": Exactly. Sources tell "The Herald" that the girl`s toes were chopped off in this heinous attack. She`s now recovering in the Children`s Hospital in Boston and they discovered her toes at the crime scene.

GRACE: To Dr. Lee Vinocur with the University of Maryland School of Medicine, Dr. Vinocur, is there any way -- I know of other body parts -- hands, legs, fingers that have -- and more -- that have been reattached?

Is that a possibility here?

VINOCUR: Well, I mean, it depends on the amount of time and when they found the toes and if they transported them and they didn`t have a long ischemic time. But certainly, with fingers, which are more useful, it depends on which toe. A big toe, they will spend the time to transplant because it helps with balance. But sometimes a baby toe, to go through all that surgery, they might not do that.

GRACE: Why did you say ischemic?

What is that?

VINOCUR: Ischemia means how long the toes were off before they could put them on ice and get the blood vessels to contract so that the tissue doesn`t start to die.

GRACE: OK...

VINOCUR: So you want to get the, you know, the part brought to the hospital.

GRACE: As fast as you can.

To the lawyers, Susan Moss, Mickey Sherman, Anne Bremner. You know, Mickey Sherman, that was to torture that little girl. That was to torture her. Now, you can`t tell me anybody is caught up in the heat of passion, they`re all in a pack mentality and then I find out the little 11-year-old girl has her toes chopped off with a machete. I can hardly form the words, Sherman.

SHERMAN: I didn`t do it. The problem is it`s indefensible. It is absolutely indefensible. I mean, you know, this is why people embrace the death penalty. And, you know, we saw because of the fallibility of the criminal justice system and The Innocence Project results, we say we`ve got to get rid of the death penalty.

And then comes one of these cases, which I call the end of the end of the death penalty, because we all want to say, let`s kill these guys and then we`ll get -- get rid of the death penalty.

GRACE: We are showing you photos. Take a look at this, Mickey, Anne, Susan. These are some of the guys that are now being held on murder and attempted murder on an 11-year-old little girl, murder of the mother. Here are the photos of the suspects from Facebook.

Now, I especially want to show, Rosie, the shot of one of them holding a knife.

Could you please get that one for me?

There you go. And I believe there`s one more holding a knife. There you go.

Now, how would you like to bring that home to dinner, Dr. Lillian Glass?

DR. LILLIAN GLASS: Horrible. It`s -- it`s just egregious. And it shows there`s a lot of sadism. You can see it in their faces. It`s -- it`s repulsive. It sounds like a ritual type of behavior.

GRACE: Out to Clark Goldband, our producer on the story.

What more can you tell me?

CLARK GOLDBAND, NANCY GRACE PRODUCER, COVERING STORY: We are standing by, Nancy, for breaking news. Authorities not ruling out additional arrests. We know four suspects already there in custody, but authorities on the ground questioning more witnesses and seeking more answers.

Also, Nancy, as you talked about, that 11-year-old girl had her toes removed and unfortunately...

GRACE: Don`t say removed. Don`t say removed. That`s not what happened.

GOLDBAND: It was...

GRACE: They hacked her toes, a little girl`s toes -- what is that, the fourth of fifth grade -- off with a machete, Clark. They didn`t remove them. Don`t -- don`t sugar coat what has happened to this family.

The father is out of town working to make a living. He leaves for one night. That night, his wife is murdered asleep in her own bed and his daughter is nearly hacked to death. And now, Boy Scouts and a Mormon missionary being held on murder charges.

What can you tell me about these alleged perpetrators, Joe?

Joe joining us from "The Boston Herald."

DWINELL: I can tell you a lot. Christopher Gribble -- that`s the one with the knife. He was supposedly going to go on a Mormon mission. But he also spoke about how the commandment of thou shalt not kill was -- was -- he was having trouble getting over that.

Facebook friends tell us that Christopher was just racked with hate, anger, rage. And this is also true of Stephen Spader. He, too, was dark. He had turned from a kid who was into, you know, theater, to someone who is just full of hate.

They went, in the early morning hours of Sunday, and just hacked this -- allegedly hacked this family apart.

GRACE: I`m just -- I`m just sick. I`m sick at heart. This child holding onto her life at the hospital. The father -- no more wife, no more mommy. And I`ve got to tell you, trying to raise two children, it takes two.

ily.

Giving Up

I'm gonna give up anything school related this weekend.

Any homework I'm not gonna do.

I'm not gonna study for any tests.

I'm not going to do shit.

School has made me so tired, stressed, and pessimistic I'm at the point where I really want to break things, punch people, then kill myself.

I really do hate school.

Sure, I'll tell teacher and others OMG I LOVE IT. I'll get myself pumped at the end of summer vacation. Tell myself to get ready to learn some new things, get some knowledge.

But really.

I hate it.

I wish we never had school or they changed the way we can get an education.

I would rather be doing manual labor in my Dad's warehouse.

Yeah I know, what a crazy teenager. I want to do work and not look like a fat ass.

But seriously, I don't give a flat fuck if my grades drop. I'm not doing anything.

I'm tired of being stressed and negative and worrying about tests, and homework and I'm tired of just having to 'deal with it' or 'get used to it'.

I've done that with enough shit already. I can stop doing it with school for awhile.

Society needs to find a better way than having kids spend 7 hours a day on their asses with the exception of standing up and sitting down to change classes and ruining their sight by staring at a text book or overhead or chalk board all day.

I say we quit the text books and start going out into the real world at an younger age and actually learning something instead of just trying to pass a class.

Like I do with almost all of mine.

I know you can only get something out of school by making something out of it...but really, there's hardly anything you can make.

Except maybe stress, depression and negativity.

ily.

Spirit Week

It has finally ended with Nordonia Day. The school was basically a sea of green, white, and black.

Physics we had another lab today, we weren't very silly though today.

Math I we got our tests back, I got a B! =D

Delivered a pass to Mr. Cash's class today...man I miss that class...he was such a jerk, I loved it. I think it's because he's really just a nice guy though.

Spanish we learned about demonstrative adjectives.

History class we took the test, even with lack of notes. I thought it was easy though *knock on wood* but a lot of other people kept on saying that they think they failed it.

I know I got one question right at least!

The Supreme Court one! I asked Cyrus after the test. =p

English I played upside down tetris then I donated rice.

=D

430 grains!!

Got home, showered, then watched some TV with Mom. Cyrus came over then and we watch Indian Jones. =)

If the weather is good I'll be going to Jess's party tomorrow!

That's it for now!

More tomorrow! =D

ily.

If You Cut Me I Suppose I Would Bleed the Colors of the Evening Stars

I'm addicted to Owl City right now. =p

Had the scheduling classes yesterday.

Methinks I will take honors Gov. and Econ (and yes they have it, it says it on the purple sheet).

I dunno. Jess says it's easy, mostly just lecture, take notes, then test, then more lecture, then more notes, then another test. Peaches says to go into honors too.

Thinking of going into Honors Chemistry. I dunno why I haven't been taking honors science classes, I'm good at science if I actually pay attention and apply myself. Something I'm starting to do in physics.

Know I'm dropping down to regular English again. Just can't do honors. I've always had A+'s in English since 1st grade. But I just can't do honors English. Either that, or I just can't do Newcomer's class.

Her tests are so stupid and such a bitch...

Also, I hate vocabulary. I've never remembered a single word we're learn and I normally fail the vocab. tests because I either forget to do them, or fall asleep as I study.

And who the fuck needs to write how you pronounce it with the little accent things or whatever you call them?

Stupid.

Going to take web page design next year. Was gonna take it this year but you all know what happened.

Hope I make it to Spanish 2...

Can't wait for the City Reads thing. Get more of The Bell Jar read. I like reading anyways.

Talked to Billy for the first time in ages yesterday, it was nice. =)

Got home, and had a headache to I took an Advil and slept from 3:30-5:30. Got up, ate dinner, did all my other homework and then watched Hero's with my Dad.

Was too tired to do the essay questions, which didn't matter anyways since the test today didn't have an essay.

Study hall today was fun.

The lady at the guidance desk handed us about 10 passes. I went "Oh my gosh, it's a pass explosion!" and she chuckled and was like "Wow, you're funny." =p

I made up a game with the passes too! You shuffle them, and pick them out, and then you add up the room numbers. Whoever has the lowest sum wins!

=D

Today marks the day of Cy and I being together for 2 months now. =)

There was a paragraph from the Grapes of Wrath on the history test. While I was reading it I was thinking "Why does this seem so familiar..." Then I saw the author and book title. =p

Abused Cyrus in art today. If his arm bruises I'm gonna laugh. =p

English was awesome.

Newcomer was in the classroom for only 5 minutes before she left to help peeps in the library. Max hid in her little closet thing and Jimmy smoked him out with Axe. Then we balled up one of Ellie's gloves and threw it around and played girls vs. boys pickle in the middle.

I made some good blocks. =p

Max, Vadict, and Jimmy roughed around a bit and hit and tackled each other. It was funny. =p

Then Max hid in the closet again and when Newcomer came back, she couldn't find him in it and he walked out right before she locked it. =p

The bell rang, and I ran into Carlos and hugged him. I miss giving Carlos hugs. =/

Talked to Mike for the first time in ages as well.

Beat Greg on the big 2 days in a row now!

Devvy chan's mom finally got the info to us this afternoon so Devvy chan will be sleeping over my house from tomorrow until Monday while her mom and mom's ex husband and now boyfriend again go on vacation.

Cleaned the guestroom out, did my physics and Spanish. Will do English tomorrow.

Now to catch up on youtube vids.

ily.

Catch Some Z's

Bigger blog post...tomorrow...I am tired from geometry, Spanish, and attempting to look at history essay questions (thank goodness it's open note).

Not feeling well.

I'll be damned if I'm sick for the dance.

Mrs.Newcomer still has my recommendation schedule...

Clashes between honors classes and average to failing grades or normal classes with high grades.

Meh.

Nighty night world.

ily.

Blah Bleh Meh

Okay, so in yesterday's post we established it was fucking cold in the school.

Today wasn't too warm either but we'll get to that later.

Sunday night I was up late talking to Cyrus and Rayy and watching online movies. Attempted to watch Across The Universe but it bored me so I moved onto Religulous. Then, all of a sudden, I'm not even halfway through the movie when it stops and alittle thing pops up saying "You have watched 72 minutes of video using our site. To continue to watch, wait another 54 minutes or buy our shit."

Okay...maybe I edited the last part a bit...but it was still the same message...

Had my Physics and Spanish 1 exam's yesterday.

I thought Physics was easy, but I got a C on the exam.

It FELT like I knew the answers.

I'm not gonna say anything about Spanish so I don't jinx it...

While Mom and I were pulling out of the school I suddenly remembered that we were supposed to be giving Peaches a ride home.

In the end we pulled into a driveway and she ran over to us.

Sorry Peaches.

The three of us gals got Wendy's though. =)

Picked up a package and post post office (it had Valentines Day present in it apparently) and then we took Peaches home.

Watched the movie Juno that I borrowed from Rayy. It was okay, kinda sadish.

Went upstairs and talked to Cy online and doodled in a notepad and then on myself.

I was using Sharpie so I had to use toothpaste to get it off of my skin. My hands and wrists smelled miny fresh though!

Around 6:15ish my Mom dropped me off at the High School for Cy's Prom Fair meeting.

I was a half hour early so I had to wait.

Didn't know anybody except the people I recognized walking down the halls that I've lost conneciton with. Like Dave Bina or Mackenze Mitchell.

The older girl with the on and off fake British accent was there too. I dunno her name...I think I used to know it though....

Speant most of my time in the end looking at my feet or petending to be texting someone. While inching towards the door I buumbped into Kelly Dean (Carly and Jaime's mom).

She and I cut into the line and went in. =p

Got yelled at for sitting in someone's reserved seat and gave them a bit of additude saying that I missed the sign and to take a chill, it wasn't the end of the world.

I mean, it's not like I wasn't going to move or anything. All you need to do is ask nicely and not give me mouth, or I'll give it back.

I kinda suck at the whole 'respect your elders' gig, don't I?

The show was good. Had some good laughs. Cyrus looked great in his. =)

One of the guys put a sign that said "Hi Mom!" on the back of his. =p

After that I found Cy in the cafe and sat down to wait as he went off to change. I got bored so I decided to count how many guys walking out of backstage would swing the door open and have it hit the table behind it and go "...whoops..."

There were 5.

For the raffle thing they had Cy won the Apple Bee's gift card thing. He hates Apple Bee's. A definate laugh out loud moment. =)

After that we decided we were hungry and went to Steak And Shake. I only got a small plate of fries and he got a salad and a milkshake.

I shot my straw wrapper at him.....because I'm mature....

=D

When he went to wash his hands because they were stick from the milkshake, I took the bill and hurried over to the chash register to pay for it.

I was like "Okay, we're going to have to speed this process up because he doesn't know I'm paying."

The lady laughed at me and we had a quick conversation about how she does it too and such. =p

Hey, he ALWAYS pays for me, why can't I pay for something just once?

Got home, watched Dad play call of Duty for a bit, then went to bed.

Had major chills this morning, couldn't get warm.

Discovred that my headphones are reaching the end of their life. There at that stage where if you move the wire you'll only be able to hear out of the right ear.

*sigh*

Best pair of headphones I've ever had, they lasted really long.

I wished they came in more colors...like red...

=)

Study hall was fun today, talked with Laura from VV. She's pretty cool, we talked about lots of stuff. =)

Had lunch right after. It wasn't as chaotic as I thought it was gonna be with many lunch changes and such.

Lost Peaches and Devvy Chan but Rayy sits at the table now! =D

Many people complemented me on my shiny shirt today. Thank yous, thank yous.

In Spanish we moved seats. I sit in the first row right in the middle. Exactly where I wanna be.

History class we got assigned seats too...

Bleh.

English we got our packet for our research papers...ugh...

Got home and immedeatly started on my homework (but saved a bit for study hall tomorrow) and then fell asleep.

I didn't wanna talk or deal with anyone (if you haven't noticed my rope was quite short today).

Fell asleep at 3:18 and woke up at 6:49.

Missed dinner, it was pick night anyways so I didn't care.

Dad and JJ came up to check on me a few times.

Woke up to Cyrus calling me, I just picked up Ozwald when he said I had 1 missed call.

I was so close! ><

Ate cereal and then called Cy back.

That's about it.

Sorry for the mood today. Not too happy I guess.

Doug, the UPS guy at my Dad's office has brain cancer and won't make it. He's really sick. Quit his job, and everything.

I didn't know him that well, but I feel like I'm losing a best friend.

I always looked forward to him coming late every afternoon to the warehouse to pick up the boxes we packed.

Blah.

Already ranted to Cy about how life isn't fair (which sucks) and how bad things always happen to good people (which I'm tired of seeing).

I wanna call Doug, but what the fuck am I going to say? "Hey Doug, heard you're dying so I'd thought I'd hurry and say goodbye before ya choke!"

I mean seriously.

I wanna visit him more but that can't happen just I'd just break down crying right in front of him. Which is just as bad as the above phone call.

Meh.

ily.

Jessica's Back! The Hunt! And Back Breakers!

Jessica is back from Ireland!!

She still doesn't have an accent though. =p

Discovered she is in my lunch and English class.

Claps and cheers!

Discovered that I did not have my:

-Spanish Binder
-Spanish Notebook
-Spanish Book
and
-History Binder

For the life of me I didn't know what happened to them.

Then something came to my attention while I was talking to my Aunt DB.

I had called to thank her for the outfit she got me for Christmas and that I had worn it today (thanks to the many that complemented how nice I looked =D).

Anyways, so I'm telling her how I lost my books and binders and I told her all the places I looked and she jokingly said "I but Cyrus stole them, ha ha!"

And then I realized...

HE DID.

O.O

Okay not really, he was carrying them for me and forgot to give them back (same difference though =x).

Apparently they might be in Touk's room.

I'm so glad I remembered what happened to them!

Although...I was pretty set on my theory that a little elf came and took them...

=p

It's the new year, so we're back to a serious workout at the Costello house.

Did the normal 3 sets this time instead of two, and we also did a new workout.

Back is quite sore now though...Dad says I should get it checked out. =/

Had a sub for a bus river this morning...man...why does it seem we only have them in the middle of winter where it's pitch black out in the morning?

He knew which roads to turn down, but he had no clue where the houses were. We tried to help him...

Charlie: You're going to want to slow down here
Bus Driver: *completely stops the bus* There's no one waiting here
Me: .....You have to go up about 3 more driveways, it will be on your right.
Bus Driver: *speeds past the house*
Charlie and I: ......You passed it...
Bus Driver: Well, if you would give me better directions

..........

*sigh* At least we made it to the school I guess...

When I got home from school today I putted in the basement and then played 2 games of pool...with myself...alone...without anyone to talk too...

Just kidding, it was actually quite peaceful. =)

For some reason I started feeling woozy so I lied down to take a small nap before dinner.

We had Matzo Ball Soup...I think I burnt my tongue on it though...it feels funny.

Also, I have managed to chew off all my pretty long nails that I grew over break...I blame school and my lack of ability to control my habit.

But mostly school.

=p

Talked to Mr. Mayer today, apparently he just didn't put my grade into progress book, but it is graded.

Got very angry today in math class...

Out of all the other problems Coach L has, with his daughter, and raising his other little ones, trying to help his wife, etc, it was brought to his attention on New Years that his mother has cancer.

I guess it's kind of a silly thing to get mad about but, he always has circles under his eyes now, and he is very quite, and always sounds sad all the time. I don't even remember the last time he smiled...

*headdesk*

Well...it can only get better...right?

=/

ily.

IZ SNOWING!

I took Hamilton outside this morning to see the snow and he tried to catch all the snowflakes. Silly little kitty. =p

Didn't do much today. Slept in until 12 because there wasn't anything to do.

Felt like being real juvenile after taking my history test.

With my dad.
As he watched as I got some of the answers from the online book.
And helped me look for them.
And then as we checked my score.
To see I failed it.

*head desk*

Why. Can't. I. Take. Tests. This. Year.

I mean fuck I could do well on tests (except in math) and not do most my homework until this year.

Now where the tests will bring me down like, 2 letter grades, even if I DID do the homework, I can't take.

I haven't gotten a single A on a test yet.

And I think I do so well on them and then BAM congrats, here's an F, piping hot and ready for your let down!

*sigh*

I'm still feeling juvenile...can ya tell?

Yeah...

BIG MOMENT!

We watched a movie as a family today.

We haven't done that in AGES!

We watched Indiana Jones, it was kinda lame, but I'd recommend it to people.

Studied for my English test tomorrow (HA!) and then read some of Grapes Of Wrath. It's actually a pretty good book. I understand it at least. =)

Speaking of books, started writing mine as well. Didn't get very far, only have a page but hey, it's progress right?

Dammit I bit all my finger nails off today.

Old habits die hard...

Rayy you forgot your shirt and pants at my house so I'll be bringing them to school in the morning. =)

Meh.

You ever just want to get in bed and sleep off all of your problems forever?

Yeeeeeah.

But life must go on!

So I should stop ranting about my tests and starting thinking about the music and format for my VV movie. =D

It's 11 right now...but I'm not that tired...

School...

Everyone better wear their PJ's inside out.

=p

ily.

Rawr.

Rawr, it means I love you in dinosaur.

=)

Remember how I said that I will never be able to have anything higher than a C+ in math except in 7th grade?

I'm so gonna prove that wrong.

YOU JUST WATCH I'M GONNA GET AT LEAST A B- ON NEXT REPORT CARD!!!

Yeah.

Was beastly in badminton today. I served the whole time though since the person I was playing with couldn't. Yes, yes I know you're not supposed to do that, but that's what the person that could actually serve on the other team did too.

We are like, the only 2 girls that can serve in the class, Cynthia and I. And lemme tell ya, she's a tricky little freshie. Sure in hell can slam that birdie.

She's my partner, but we were playing against 2 girls that could hardly even hit the birdie let alone serve it. We wanted to play against each other anyways, see who's strengths will win out.

While Cynthia is good in the front of the court I'm good in the back because of my strong arm.

=)

My team won, but it was 17-15, so a very good game.

=D

It's gonna be so sad when PE is over...

Dunker day today, I knew it before lunch because of my 7th sense. My dunker sense.

They were tingling I tell you!

=p

Got a 32/36 on my Spanish speaking test!

I couldn't pronounce two words because of my sinuses and I was all congested and stuff...stupid sinuses...

I swear I was sneezing like crazy on the bus because of them. Sarah, a freshie I've known since...lets see...Rushwood actually (I remembered we used to play card games on the bus =p) kept on saying 'bless you' every time I sneezed.

I told her she could stop because I was afraid I would tire her out. =p

Heh...this whole sneezing thing remindes me of a Dane Cook skit...

I must share, even though most have you have probably watched it. But it's so epic so you might as well watch it again. =D

Click here. No, no wait here. Just kidding. HERE. <---- click =) Some of the skits in between have been cut out to make it shorter in this video but other than that it's still funny as hell. I love Dane Cook. In a fangril sorta way. =p OMG I'm sad. Mr. Johansson put a math question on the little history quiz thing... Now, that math equation yesterday I basically knew how to do, but this one has percents. Yes, I know, I should know how to do this, depend to much on calculater blah blah. But you see I have a few theroies on why I don't know how to do them. On the week they were teaching that I was either: A. Sick B. Sleeping C. Daydreaming or D. Abducted by aleins. I'm banking on that last one. My parents and Grammy have given up on trying to teach me. They say that I'm just to blonde for percents. =p Once Mr. Johansson explained how to get the answer though I was like...'Oh....well why the hell didn't I think of that?!' -_- Heh....my mom was reading one of my blog posts over my shoulder and she kept pointing at the screen and asking 'What's that?' and all of those things she was pointing at were smilies. =p (sticking out tongue) =) (smile) =D (big smile) =o (gasp like) XD (laughing really really hard) =x (shhhh, who said that?! type smilely) -_- (lame type look.) <.< (shifty eyes left) >.> (Shifty eyes right)

I told her I like to express myself.

=p

Look there's another!

Stayed after school to help Mr. Johansson on the Valley Voyages video. He wants it to be a promo type thing, so I'm gonna go on youtube and check out some promo video's and maybe find a few secret techniques or something. I dunno.

It's really just an excusse to go on youtube. =p

Went into the photo room where the new computers were and upload the files from the memory chips on the camera to the hard drive. I finished my vocab homework while doing that and watched this 'secret underground table tennis'.

Heh...I was pelted with the ball about 3 times in the head. I told them it was okay though, I played softball.

REMEMBER THAT TIME I TOOK A LINE DRIVE TO THE FACE?!

Heh heh...good times, good times.

Mr. Loman asked about my blog so I believe hes going to be reading it now too.

Piiiiist, you guys should follow me so I have more pretty little pictures under my followers section.

=)

Wow this post is loooooooooooooooooong....

Got home and walked the dog with my dad. He wasn't even planning to and then when I asked he jumped off the couch and went "REALLY?!" and then ran into the bedroom to change out of his work clothes.

Then he was bugging me that I didn't have any sweats so I went up into JJ's room and took his. =p

3 years younger than me...and he's taller than me...

Not. Cool.

Then again now I can steal his clothes along with my moms now! =D

Made myself a grilled cheese for dinner. First time in a long time....since last time...well...

mom: whatcha doin Ashley?
me: makin a grilled cheese.
mom: .....um.... *looks in pan* Ashley....
me: hmm?
mom: ...where's the cheese?
me: *looks and throws spatula down* awe shit! *storms away*
mom: *laughs at me the whole day*

Yes, mega blonde moment right there.

But this time I made sure to put cheese. =)

Worked a little on my Valley Voyages journal today, gonna finish the rest up tomorrow.

By the way, schedule is full for tomorrow.

Getting home, doing VV, then working out and going out to order my Letterman's jacket.

Then it's of course Friday, pizza night, so Dad and I are going to go out and get pizza and then buy a lottery ticket.

Which reminds me.

Wanna hear something funny about my dad?

Remember those breakfast with Santa things at the High school and they had raffles?

Well, my dad would always put his name in something, and he would win it. EVERY YEAR.

And while he was in Vegas for his fastener convention he put his business card in a raffle for an Ohio State golf bag and won it.

It came today, and he gave it to me since he doesn't use those types of bags.

Thanks dad! =)

Anyways, we're hoping to become millionaires so my parents can retire and not have to worry as much about college anymore. =D

Sounds like a good plan huh?!

=p

If we win I swear though, I think I'll spaz out from all the epicness and excitement.

=)

Hmmmm...thinking about getting a new template for my blog very soon...

Well, think I should end this very very long postie now.

OH I ALMOST FORGOT!

Caramel has asked me to ask you, Mr. Johansson, what you would do if I started refering to you as Joey on my blog? =p

ily.

And I Have Become Comfortably Numb.

Omg.

Sudden. Urge. To listen to. Pink. Floyd.

Hmmm...maybe after Halloween Dark Side Of The Moon background??

Who knows, I've very random. =)

Woke up and saw the hail so I was very glad of planning to wear my Ohio State hoodie today. I was all warm and toasty the whole day. ^-^

Physics had a notebook quiz. I answered all the questions in time, which is more than I can say for a lot of others in my class. Very glad I took my binder home, and organized it more before memorizing the order.

Gemoetry I have a B in now, took the test today, so that will decide if it stays or not. I dunno, I seemed to do very well on the test...of course...that's what I said last test.

I've been talking to some of my fellow students and it seems we have all come to an agreement that the tests are a lot harder this year.

But I can change that right?!

PE the gals weren't there so I was the only girl on the team. We lost. I can't play defense and offense at the same time. Those boys need to get more aggressive... =/

Lunch? Potato triangles. Awesomeness again.

Spanish had a listening test and such. I was only confused at one question, but I think I got the answer right.

History watched more of the movie. I'm not gonna lie, I almost fell asleep. I knew I was daydreaming. I mean come on, I know the video didn't have vampires in it.

We finished the tape though. So tomorrow? Another tape!! =D

I'm sad...I have writers block so I can't write my play.... =(

I've deiced to write a poem instead, which is fine though, I need to get into a poetic mood to write that other one for English.

Cyrus said he wants to read my Rose Petal's poem. Ya know, the one I want to get published?? I'm bringing it in tomorrow.

=D

Think it's one of my deepest poems....written out of pure boredom... I should be bored more often. =p


Art class we watched the rest of Radio. Almost cried, I swear... =(

English....I...daydreamed....and daydreamed...and....daydreamed.

Any of you ever wish the school was taken hostage just to make a class more entertaining or is it just me?

Nobody would get hurt or anything, just crazy men with really big guns running around the school.

And the phone lines are cut, and the power out, it's the dead of winter and we're pratically snowed in. The temperature is going down and people are getting sleepy and turning blue from the cold. The roads are blocked and police can't get to us, everyone is panicking silently.

Then suddenly!

Gun shots ring out!! There's screaming!! And all of a sudden the door to the classroom breaks open and a man dress in black flies in! And then!

The bell rings and class is over.


I have a very wild imagination. =p

But seriously though, wouldn't that be awesome? It sure in hell would make a great blog post...

But I digress.

Got home, and fell right to sleep, then mom took us to Apple Bee's! Dad still wasn't 'feeling it' from yesterday. Mom yelled at him. =p

Ooooooh speaking of mom, she got me some cool shirts from Vegas. I'm going to wear one tomorrow.

=D

Worked out before coming on the computer. Studied my butt off for Spanish. I better get a good grade on our big vocab quiz....

Heh heh....

I swear I feel so loved right now.

Ashlet (8:15:45 PM): it's like...my duty as an older sibling to scare him i think

Cyrus (8:16:15 PM): xD

Cyrus (8:16:19 PM): this is why I love you.

Cyrus (8:16:21 PM): Seriously.

Ashlet (8:16:26 PM): =)

I got lot's of hugs today too!

More tomorrow?

=)

And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear
And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

ily.

Meh...

Suddenly I don't feel much like posting...

Mom is going to Vegas tomorrow.

There was a new kid in our physics class.

Only us girl's played on the hockey team today and we won both games without the guys.

Spanish class was...annoying....everyone was acting like morons. It was like they had never taken Spanish before.

Think I did pretty well on my history test today.

Talked with Cyrus in art today. =)

Went to get my hair trimmed and stuff.

Forgot to bring my geometry stuff home and now I don't know how to do my homework. Which means my grade will fall again. I was all excited because I was almost to a B-, screwed now. I had an A+ until I did bad on a test and then it went down like a ton of bricks.

Blah.

Going to bed now.

Oh yeah, lots of hugs tomorrow please?

ily.

On A Down Slope On The Road Of Life

Isn't that like, kinda deep in a way? Like a teen wouldn't say that. =p

Here's what's up:

-School isn't going to hot
-I had an A in Geometry until a big test and then it got brought down to a C
-I have 3 C's now...
-Golf isn't going to good either
-My swing is messed up
-I'm not going to be able to play again until next year
-Some people know my horrible score that I hardly even know
-I dunno what I wanna do when I grow up
-Everyone is talking about colleges
-I have no clue where I want to go to college
-My future is pretty much blank
-Worries about my mom
-Can't find my 'Troy' still (although that's to be expected)

Think that's it...

But everything gets worse before it gets better right?

Tried to change my blog template but the color thing still isn't working so I'm not gonna do it. My 'Cool Bloggers' widget was messed up, so I have to fix that.

Dad sent me a vid about a 5 year old that has the golf swing of tiger and has never gone to lessons and just learned by watching TV. In the e-mail he said that I'm a good golfer like that too but it just made me feel guilty about Wednesday (yeah, I'm never gonna get over that...).

Oh well. *shrugs*

Got an account on Flickr! I'll find a little gadget thing and post it up so you can see some of the pic's I've taken. I think some of them look pretty professional. Seriously. Makes me what to get into photography.

With golf I don't have much time to look into script writing which I mentioned before is something I want to explore. Next week is the last week though. Which brings me to brag on how I have a 5 day weekend while you guys have a 4 day. Heh heh, golf all day Wednesday, no school for me!

Missing like, lot's of tests though. Gonna take some early though and get them over with.

Need to clean my room. Will get to that maybe tonight or tomorrow.

Mom's surgery is Oct. 1st! That's Wednesday, the day of sectionals for golf which I don't get to play I believe. I hope not. I'm just gonna stay away from the course and keep hitting the range to build up my confidence again.

Umm...that's it for now. Lost my celly. Should go look for that.

meh

not exactly in the best of moods today, more sad than mad. I'm 75% sad, 12% mad, 7% nervous, and another 6% happy.

I hate school. At least the end of the year. You've got exams, the end of the year grades, teachers cramming all these things in your head before school lets out for the summer. Ugh. My grades are okay, cept for my F in math and keyboarding. I have an F all because I couldn't find my 20 point project on the computer. I told the teacher I saved it but she just shrugged her shoulders and said that was my problem. Thanks Arbs....you're really a helpful teacher and a ball of fun...

Now, I might have an F in math but I can figure out this:

study hall + F= APR APR + Study Hall= no library No library= no friends

I"m going to cry. That was the only thing that got my through the day was the library with my friends and now I'll have to spend it in fucking APR. I made it a goal not to get in there. Some goal setter I am. This summer is really going to be a waste of time.

I'm so pissed at myself for getting 2 F's. What the fuck is wrong with me? Sure, yeah, I can get it up...but I still let it drop down to an F. And one in KEYBOARDING? maybe I'm just a stupid, lazy, blonde that depends too much on her friends to get through the day.

My dad is stupid when it comes to this stuff too. For example today:

me: *upstairs typing up essay for English that's due TOMORROW*
dad: wanna work out now?
me: no I need to finish my essay
dad: you can do it later
me: no I can't, I'll lose my train of thought and I won't do my other homework in the end
*3 minute argument later*
dad: *slams door and will be pissed for the rest of the day*

FTW, he gets mad at me for DOING my homework and caring about my GRADES instead of working out? Now I'm not only in trouble with my mom, but I also have to deal with asshole for the rest of the day.

I guess this day can't get completely awful...Shannon gave me a kiss, and Zak finally kissed me today. Along with my help though...

Study Hall ( the last one I'll probably have in the library):

erin + me: *talk about the after credit make-out max and her had at the movies*
me: you know I was going to kiss you (zak) before you left the car but I didn't because my mom was in the car
zak: yeah, that would be awkward
me: but mom's not here now
zak: but erin is
me: *thinks I failed*
*study hall ends, zak walks me halfway to next class*
zak: well I gotta run to the other side of the school, see you later
me: byes
zak: wanna kiss?
me: mhm
*mwah* *we walk away*

so it wasn't exactly romantic but oh well I guess. It wasn't exactly as great as I thought it would be either. I guess I should be more...excited or something...I mean when Erin and max kissed she was all like: IT WAS AMAZINGLY AWESOME. Me, I'm all meh we kissed big deal, people kiss, all couples kiss....

is there something wrong with me there too?

*sigh*

school sucks, I hope someone blows it up while we're sleeping one night.

P.s. in the blog spell checker it said blonde was spell wrong cuz I had a type-o and one of the suggestions was boner....-_- o.O

Glad To Get Out

I think this is why I like school.

Today: I woke up at 10:30 (even though I was planning on sleeping in till like 12...) and took a shower. My dad and brother weren't home, and my mom was sitting in the lazy boy chair. I greeted her with a: "Morning mom! Happy National Weed Day! *cough*"

She smiled and we asked how we slept and stuff then we made ourselves some bacon. Rayy called and told me she could come to the movie (yay!) so I was looking forward to that. I asked anyone else if they could come but they said they couldn't so it was just the two of us =)

Well after pouring some fruit loops in a bowl (and for our debate in math class there is a green one) dad and Jay got home. Dad went downstairs to play his army game on the PS2 and mom started yelling at JJ. Apparently at his Saturday detention yesterday (his 2nd one I might add) he didn't do any of the work his teacher asked him to do there and just sat around for 2 hours.

What he had to do was fix two math tests, where totaling the points on each test to about 20 (1 point a piece) he got about 5/20. She starts yelling and lecturing, so I go upstairs and grab my IPod. Around 1:30 I put the IPod down and got ready to go pick up Rayy and go to the movies. Mom was still yelling at JJ and trying to get him to fix the problems. While putting on a little make-up I heard JJ storm away from the table and yell at my mom: "Get away from me you fucker and go smoke a fucking cigarette!"

I think that hurt me more than it hurt my mom but I dunno. That, was a really really really times 10 mean and crule thing to say in my opinion. JJ slams his bedroom door, dad comes upstairs and asks what's wrong, my mom tells about the whole detention thing and what happened in the last hour and then storms off to the bathroom to get ready to take me to Rayys. I figure it's safe to come out, so I grab my purse and celly then head downstairs to find dad sitting in the lazy boy chair looking over the tests JJ had to fix. He asked me (like he has been now for the umpteenth time) "What do you think is wrong with him?" and (like I always reply) say "I dunno he won't talk to me."

so dad goes upstairs to talk to JJ, mom comes out, asked me where the both of them were while we were in the car. I tell her and then she starts on her ranting mode. I think she's jealous of my dad because JJ is seeming to favor him more...I dunno...from the rant it sounded that way.

Movie time (THANK THE NON-EXISTENT GOD)

Rayy and I bought popcorn and shared a coke. The theater wasn't packed, and the movie was good. It wasn't horror (like I thought) but more suspense (like I guessed). It was unpredictable so that's what made it good too. Then mom picks us up and drops Rayy off. We go to my Grammy's for awhile to show her mine and JJ's report card. I got $25 for mine and JJ got nothing cuz it was so bad. More ranting there, then on the way home and now I'm here.

I smell dinner now, Steak, yummy! I'm hungry too. Might ask my dad if I can go to the rang today after dinner but I'm not really feeling good. I think it's because I'm hungry, but the sun is making my head hurt. I wanna take a nap outside...

Ryan's not gonna be at school the whole week, so that means Peaches is going to be talking to a lot more people now instead of focusing all her energy and attention on him. I've got to admit when Ed was telling me how Peaches wanted to walk with her since Ryan wasn't there and she said "well you always could have walked with me the whole year but you didn't until now since Ryan isn't here.." then walked away, she had a point. I mean I know that they're boyfriend and girlfriend and all but that doesn't mean they have to stop hanging out with people and stuff like that.

Ugh...I gotta write more of chappie 3...I gotta redo it actually...forgot to put in some key parts...crudnuts...

Hammy says hi! (he's not actually trying to get the birds this time!)