I Really Should Be Asleep

It is now 1:39 on this lovely Sunday night.

I should be asleep but I'm wide awake, many things going through my mind right now.

Ah, I feel a very negatively vibed post coming on, feel free to skip down to the much more happier post about my Sunday under this one blog readers.

There's also a rant that's gonna be in here too...I can feel it...

Attempted to work on the binder for VV, tried to listen to the prowl tours online but it has proven to be impossible to concentrate on. It's so boring to listen to, and each of the prowls are 30-45 minutes long.

I really wish we could have actually gone on the prowl.

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Answered most of the other questions in the binder though.

I could write my journal right now, but I dunno what to say. I'm not good with all this industry and businussy stuff. Really all I got is that Cleveland should use the lake front property for things like shops, and hotels and other such things. Many major cities do that, it seems to bring in some business, and might make people want to move there. =/

Blah.

I asked my Dad for some help, asked him why he thought Cleveland went down and why it's taking us so long to get back up to where we were and stuff.

His answer: Taft.

Well shit, that REALLY helped me, thanks Dad.

*rolls eyes*

This week doesn't seem like it will be a very good week. Getting that creeping feeling of overwhelming on my back.

Which, those of you who knew and remember from last year what that could bring back, although I'm trying my hardest not to let it. Found the object to that childishness and will be giving it to my mother I think.

Cyrus was asking me times he could come over and I told him Tuesday and 7 should be okay but then remembered that I workout then and apparently my mom has an appointment for her arm too, which my dad will be going with her to.

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I'm completely free Wednesday though...

Winter break is coming up, started talking to my dad, telling him how our break is like, 15 days and that I would really like to come back for a few and work in the warehouse of offices.

He said that they were cutting back majorly this month and that he doesn't think I can. =/

Apparently one of our big customers, Chick Master Inc. has gone bankrupt. They had so much sales happening around the world and then they just canceled and everything. Not to mention the top sales rep guy was laid off...

It's like someone just turned the water off or something. My dad's best business for the company so far this year was in October and September and then BAM November hit and everything just stopped.

Damn economy.

What I don't get is that, like, we've seen something like this coming for awhile right? So like, how come we failed at preventing this huge slump from happening?

Blah.

Need to find a way to make money for the holidays and other things.

Thought about shoveling driveways, that would be GREAT for my back huh?

If it were summer I could mow people's lawns...

Was thinking about cleaning my Grammy's and Uncles house's but I dunno...I'd hate to try and scrounge money off of them when they're getting me gifts for the holidays, ya know? =/

Hmmmm...

I'll think of something...

And if any of you suggest robbing a bank JJ's already beat ya to it. =p

Have to stay after school tomorrow to take that essay test...

Got most of the paragraph planned out in my head though, so that's good.

Unless she changes the topic it's on... O.O

It's 2:14 now...

Dammit why can't things like this happen on a Saturday where I DON'T have school the next day.

Meeeeeeeeeeh.

Dad's pestering me about Cyrus has really been getting to my head, but in the sense that if Cyrus asks me out and I say yes he would be in a pissed off mood and hate me or something.

Okay, so he wouldn't hate me, he's my dad, but my dad seems to know how to make my life a living hell (along with everyone else in the house).

Dammit, why do fathers always have to be all big, mean, scary, and negative when it come's to boys?!

And yes, Cyrus is 2 years older than me, which in high school can be a very big difference when it comes to social group, and education and such.

And yes, he'll be going away to college.

But for crying out loud he's making more of a fuss over Cyrus than Zak who's only ambition in life was to lay me and leave.

Ah, the irony in this situation. I sometimes laugh at it.

Debating on whether or not I should just give up sleeping and caffeine my way through the day...

Why do I have this suddenly feeling I have a physics test tomorrow...

Oh boy.

Still haven't found my Spanish book...I should check the lost and found.

Now that I'm done with my rambling and rants lets find the brighter side of all of this...

I can get my mother to help me with my Valley Voyages things tomorrow...

There is still a chance I can work for SWACO during winter break...

As for the economy...well, I dunno, everything gets worse before it gets better.

And I guess it's good that my dad cares, and that all of this is his way of trying to protect me as a father.

I could try and cram 3 hours of sleep in...

Maybe...

Meh.

I guess there aren't only negative things going on in my mind right now. There's friends, a certain someone, snowflakes, and logs on the fire.

*sigh*

Just watch, this will all blow over tomorrow.

Felt good to get it off of my chest though.

I just can't seem to end a post negative now can I?

=p

ily

Meh...

Suddenly I don't feel much like posting...

Mom is going to Vegas tomorrow.

There was a new kid in our physics class.

Only us girl's played on the hockey team today and we won both games without the guys.

Spanish class was...annoying....everyone was acting like morons. It was like they had never taken Spanish before.

Think I did pretty well on my history test today.

Talked with Cyrus in art today. =)

Went to get my hair trimmed and stuff.

Forgot to bring my geometry stuff home and now I don't know how to do my homework. Which means my grade will fall again. I was all excited because I was almost to a B-, screwed now. I had an A+ until I did bad on a test and then it went down like a ton of bricks.

Blah.

Going to bed now.

Oh yeah, lots of hugs tomorrow please?

ily.

Ching Ching!

Soooo I told some people that I would post yesterday...and it's Saturday...whoops....heheh.

I got stuck on my Vally Voyages paper, and then I started to worry that it was too much essay like. Like I said, I'm not used to putting my opinion in a school essay. It was like wait...I can use the word 'you' or 'I'?! Freaky...

Woke up at 6:30 for the bike through the Vally. I almost didn't get up because I thought "Why the heck did I set my alarm clock when we're off- oh that's right..."

Picked up Devvy Chan and then we parked at the Winking Lizard by the Cycles place. Turns out the sheet was wrong and we had to go down more by the path. *shrugs* Signed in, and then gathered my group of people for the trip. I got Roy to changed groups to save Devvy Chan by he undying love for her. =p

Tee hee...when we were getting our bikes loaded I saw the there was a thing on the car that said Jacking Pad. I couldn't resist taking a picture....I'm so immature. =)

Oh, guess who I sat with on the train! Carlos!! I love that kid, I gave him lot's of hugs. =D

Ariel found a way to come...I told her my group was too big though...

Rayy, Maria, her Aunt (who I kept thinking was her mom) and Devvy Chan were in my group. Dev hadn't ridden a bike in 2 years so she almost crashed a few times, but she still made it! =D

Caught up with Roy's group a few times, he kept asking me about Devvy Chan and I finally told him that she wasn't looking for a boyfriend right now. *shrugs* Hey, it's the truth. He seemed kinda down but I told him there were a ton of other girls out there....so he started hanging off of me. I gave him the hint in the end that I'm fine with being single. Roy isn't my type anyways.

Oh, and on the train Jimmy kept telling me that he was single....I was like 'That's...nice....'.

It was really cold when we started out but once we got pedaling I warmed up. I was wearing like, five layers. =p

On the way we sped past Cyrus's group, apparently the one girl ran into the other and skinned her knee. Idiot. I felt bad for him...he basically had the we're-stupid-but-we-look-good-and-slutty group. One of the girls was on the internet on her phone while biking and ran into him. Mind you, the bike I let him borrow was like, $400, and I'm not afraid to strangle a person, especially one of them, if they even so much as scratched it.

I heard enough shit from my dad before I even lent it out to Cyrus.

No one in my group had to do extra credit, but we stopped a lot in the beginning anyways. It got annoying. We were all cold, and tired, and I did tell them a little bit about the Vally, mainly before the trip. Also, Mr. Testa had told then some interesting facts too while he was riding with our group. In the end, I decided to not stop, we were all late getting to the parking lot anyways, and I didn't want anyone's parents to wait.

Devvy Chan stayed with me till the bitter end, but we had to keep stopping so people could catch up. I almost hit this lady taking a picture and caused a pile up behind me. I rang my bell, I told her passing, and she just took one look at me and stepped right into the path. I was ready to shout "Lady, what the hell are you doing?!" But I didn't, self control remember? =p

I almost hit a chipmunk too! Sorry chipmunk!!

Everyone was excited when the ride was over. Rayy and Maria left, and really only Billy, Larry, Jim, Dev, Ariel and I were left. I seriously wanted to punch Ariel in the face. The girl would NOT stop hanging off of me. I pushed her away, I ducked underneath her, I gave her looks, I told her to get off, and dammit she would not stop. It was like a monkey hugging a banana, she would not let go and stop strangling me.

*sigh*

She started asking me about my blog too, which I don't want her reading at all, period. I told her that she had to get a blogger account and all this other stuff that she wouldn't bother doing, and that it was set to private, and stuff.

Gave Larry, and Billy and everyone lot's of hugs. Then mom came and I had to get the bikes on the rack. Ariel kept getting her hands in the way and I told her to stop that I got it but she refused to I slapped her arm out of the way and told her to buzz off in the nicest way possible at that point. I couldn't stand it.

She kept bugging my mom about me sleeping over in November too. Could tell mom was getting annoyed too. She said no.

Devvy Chan came over and I tried to work on my VV journal but I got stuck so we ate pizza hut and got ready for the game. It was pretty cold out, and the game was relatively calm. Hung out with Cyrus and we bundled up together to keep warm. My dad came because he was sick of watching us lose and I had him meet Cyrus. They were shaking hands until Ariel just jumped in front of him, attacked him, and started asking my dad about me sleeping over in November...

My dad was annoyed about that too.

Then we lost JJ, since he can't stay in one spot, so we had to search for him before leaving. Had to listen to Dad keep asking about Cyrus's parents and saying that if Cyrus was black I wasn't allowed to date him anymore.

1. I'm not dating him.
2. I could care less about his color.

Stupid raciest jackass.

He started yelling at Devlyn too, I wanted to slap him.

>=/

This post as seemed to have taken a turn to the negative....whoops.

*takes deep breath*

Had cinnamon buns today!

There we go. =D

Happy Sweetest Day!

ily.

I'm Sorry

Why are all you people sorry? I don't get why people say that when there isn't a reason at all that they should be sorry for. You didn't do anything at all.

Put white vinger on my sunburn, it feels better now than before.

Mom went to the ER around 7 so it's been a little over an hour.

Nothing seems to be cheering me up, in fact everything just seems to make me feel worse...

*sigh*

very negative mood. I don't think I've ever been this negative before in my life...

School was okay I guess, was still down from last evening, and some girl called me a whore because of my shirt.

Got 20 points worth of extra credit done for math that's to Dev for letting me copy her notes and stuff. Thanks a bunch Devvy chan.

um...i dunno now....nothing really to do...should do homework...but I'm not, enough of school for today.

ily.