School was okay today I guess.
My physics class was like Lunesta, it's side effects were drowsiness, and seeing a green butterfly flutter across the room (or maybe that was just my imagination...).
Math I forgot my review sheet at home, lucky for me Mr. L gave everyone full credit for doing it anyways since we went over the whole thing. He gave us another review thing, which is optional, but I think I'm going to do it if I have time.
During guidance today I went to see if my shoes and stuff were given away that I had left in my PE locked from last semester (like, over 5 weeks ago). They're gone. 3rd pair of shoes lost to PE class. The 1st 2 were stolen, I came to find my locker broken into and them not there. The one day I leave them because I had too much shit to carry that day.
There went $100.
And now these shoes (which was my bad) to add to that to make that $120.
Yippee.
Spanish class it seemed like Smith liked how I made my house 3D...
History we did study island stuffs, but we use the cave computer lad. I dunno what it's near, but there is something near there that makes a weird noise and it always gives me a headache. I tried to put my headphones in but they didn't do jack shit to help me concentrate either.
Art Cyrus came to find that his bowl had broken, either it just broke by itself (less likely) or some dumbass accidentally broke it (most likely).
He has so start all over now. =/
English we worked in groups so that was fun.
Got home, drove Hammy to the vet with mom in heavy traffic. And lemme tell you, not being able to go 50 and being stuck bumper to bumper?
NOT. FUN.
Oh, I savor the day I get to go 80 on the highway...
Did study island until dinner after I drove home and then cleaned my room.
Actually, I cleaned my room (as in, picked up anything that was on the floor...my dressers are a different story...) and then decided to clear out my closet of all my old, small, and ugly clothes.
2 large garbage bag fulls.
And there is probably more coming, I still need to clear out the shit on the floor of the closet as well.
Meh.
It will be nice once it's all done though. We'll see how long I can keep my shit in order.
I remember when my bed used to not have anything under it either...
I'm going to do the math...later I guess....I know how to do it, it's not like it's that hard *knocks on wood*
I'd do it in the morning but I need that time to study Spanish vocab for my test tomorrow.
Been thinking about some goals for this summer.
I've already got The List of stupid things to do this summer. Most of which I want to video tape. This, would require a video camera, which I don't have. I've been looking on Best Buy's web site but I like to actually go into the store.
Also, I dunno what to buy, I'm not all that technology savvy.
But anyways, I've got 2 more things I wanna do this summer.
-Learn how to write with my left hand
-Learn how to ride a skateboard
Actually, the last one should be 'learn how to do tricks on a skateboard' since I already can ride one.
I was riding on JJ's today actually. =D
Hero's was pretty good.
Will have to talk about it with Andy tomorrow! =)
ily.
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Monday, March 9, 2009
Monday, May 26, 2008
Ear plugs please?
*sigh*
so dinner came, and my dad suddenly starts yelling at Jj cuz apparently he wasn't holding his fork correctly which in my book since he was eating at home I'm thinking 'who gives a fuck?' but I don't say that out loud.
dad: jj hold your fork right now, you're like an animal
me: humans are animals
dad: no they aren't
me: mhm, we're just smarter, waaaaay smarter, and have better thumbs! *thumbs up*
dad: *shut the fuck up glare*
this proves a few things:
1. my dad needs to go back to school
2. he needs to get a sense of humor
3. he also needs to take a chill pill
we all start quietly munching on our food and dad then asks me if I asked my friends about golfing with them this summer. The 'friends' he's talking about is really a 'friend' and that's Ashley O, who I really only talk to at lunch. I told him that we're gonna call each other up during the summer, which is the truth, and he starts going off on how on Monday's and Wednesday I'm going to be working for him, and that Tuesday I have my golf league and stuff like that, my summer that he's all planned out apparently. Then he says something about another league (this one all girls though) I could join on Thursday. I told him I really don't want to because in truth I hate the golf leagues. I really don't make any friends there, and I don't really see what I learn except that I need to work on my driver which I already know.
Well I guess saying that I didn't like the leagues so much set him off because he then he yells a me saying that he's spent all his time and money planning the golf things and stuff, and that I'm a loser and a quitter and I always give up, and I'm never good enough, and never can reach a goal and that right here right now I should decide whether or not I'm going to do golf this summer because if not he'll just sell the clubs to some kid that actually wants and is good at golf and will use them.
Look at all that motivation! Gee thanks dad! I really know I can actually live up to something for you now!
Anyways, he keeps yelling at me, and I push away from the table, slam the door and go up in the guest room and start tearing up, feeling sorry for leaving Dev, having dinner being ruined, and leaving a bit of food my mom slaved over most of the day on my plate and also feeling sorry for Jj cuz I know he hates seeing me like that.
My mom comes up about 2 minutes later, gives me a hug, and then yells at me saying that my bedroom is a mess, and how I can never keep it clean for more than two seconds.
Even more motivation!
I'd like to point out some things from the above:
1. dad saying how he's spent all his time and money planning things out for golf
Yes, thanks for buying me golf clubs, getting me lessons, taking me to the range and stuff like that, I really appreciate it. But I didn't ask for you to plan out my whole summer around golf and working for you, I have more of a life outside of that. I didn't ask to try out for the golf team, you always just made it seem that I HAD to do this. I didn't ask to be on a league this year, you always just went ahead behind my back and signed me up. I didn't ask for you to drive me around and plan when I need to go to the range, I can ask mom and plan things myself. I'm 14, I can do things like that. Also, I can also plan the things around MY schedule not YOUR schedule.
2. I'm a quitter and I always give up
Well you can see where my motivation is coming from for golf, but I don't remember quitting anything, or giving up cept on maybe math, but I'm more lazy at that. I haven't stopped working out either now have I?
3. dad: "I'll sell the clubs some kid that actually wants and is good at golf and will use them."
Thanks once again. I guess all those complements you've given me all the past were just lies then.
4. My room being messy
My room wasn't messy. There were just the sleeping bags on the floor that a slept on, Dev's stuff, and my stuffed animals spread about the room. Once Dev packed, I put away the sleeping bags, and piled all the animals it looked clean.
Also, I try to keep my room clean but it's hard when I spend almost everyday up here now, and why do you care it's not YOUR room, it's MY room and maybe I like it this way.
It's sad to know that the only confidence I get for golfing now is from random strangers at a golf range.
Do I want to quit? Yes.
Am I going to quit? No.
Why? Cuz I'm not a QUITTER.
The only reason I did golf really was because when I was young I thought it would get my dad to love me more. As I got older I thought that was silly. Doesn't seem as silly now though. It seems like the only way to live up to his expectations is to golf and be on the pro tour and stuff.
Sorry dad, guess I'm a failure.
Back to the say I guess. Dev came up after awhile and asked if I had a knife. I said know, but told her to be honest, I was really thinking about it, and thinking about it hard. She told me she worries about me- and not in that 'ha ha i worry about you sometimes' way because I'm funny or something.
I'm sorry everyone. I really didn't mean to make you worry. I shouldn't have told you guys I guess, you all have your own problems and enough to worry about.
These last few days, especially when Rayy and Dev were here, I woke up will more self confidence that I've ever had in a long time, and looking forward to what seemed like a great summer of 08. It's amazing how all of that can just disappear in the blink of an eye.
It's hot in my room.
I should have showered today, now I smell like chlorine for school tomorrow, great.
The blemish cream doesn't seem to be working so I guess I'm coming to school ugly too.
I'm tired but I'm too hot to go to sleep.
I guess I should stop making this post even longer seeing that I posted today already.
ily.
so dinner came, and my dad suddenly starts yelling at Jj cuz apparently he wasn't holding his fork correctly which in my book since he was eating at home I'm thinking 'who gives a fuck?' but I don't say that out loud.
dad: jj hold your fork right now, you're like an animal
me: humans are animals
dad: no they aren't
me: mhm, we're just smarter, waaaaay smarter, and have better thumbs! *thumbs up*
dad: *shut the fuck up glare*
this proves a few things:
1. my dad needs to go back to school
2. he needs to get a sense of humor
3. he also needs to take a chill pill
we all start quietly munching on our food and dad then asks me if I asked my friends about golfing with them this summer. The 'friends' he's talking about is really a 'friend' and that's Ashley O, who I really only talk to at lunch. I told him that we're gonna call each other up during the summer, which is the truth, and he starts going off on how on Monday's and Wednesday I'm going to be working for him, and that Tuesday I have my golf league and stuff like that, my summer that he's all planned out apparently. Then he says something about another league (this one all girls though) I could join on Thursday. I told him I really don't want to because in truth I hate the golf leagues. I really don't make any friends there, and I don't really see what I learn except that I need to work on my driver which I already know.
Well I guess saying that I didn't like the leagues so much set him off because he then he yells a me saying that he's spent all his time and money planning the golf things and stuff, and that I'm a loser and a quitter and I always give up, and I'm never good enough, and never can reach a goal and that right here right now I should decide whether or not I'm going to do golf this summer because if not he'll just sell the clubs to some kid that actually wants and is good at golf and will use them.
Look at all that motivation! Gee thanks dad! I really know I can actually live up to something for you now!
Anyways, he keeps yelling at me, and I push away from the table, slam the door and go up in the guest room and start tearing up, feeling sorry for leaving Dev, having dinner being ruined, and leaving a bit of food my mom slaved over most of the day on my plate and also feeling sorry for Jj cuz I know he hates seeing me like that.
My mom comes up about 2 minutes later, gives me a hug, and then yells at me saying that my bedroom is a mess, and how I can never keep it clean for more than two seconds.
Even more motivation!
I'd like to point out some things from the above:
1. dad saying how he's spent all his time and money planning things out for golf
Yes, thanks for buying me golf clubs, getting me lessons, taking me to the range and stuff like that, I really appreciate it. But I didn't ask for you to plan out my whole summer around golf and working for you, I have more of a life outside of that. I didn't ask to try out for the golf team, you always just made it seem that I HAD to do this. I didn't ask to be on a league this year, you always just went ahead behind my back and signed me up. I didn't ask for you to drive me around and plan when I need to go to the range, I can ask mom and plan things myself. I'm 14, I can do things like that. Also, I can also plan the things around MY schedule not YOUR schedule.
2. I'm a quitter and I always give up
Well you can see where my motivation is coming from for golf, but I don't remember quitting anything, or giving up cept on maybe math, but I'm more lazy at that. I haven't stopped working out either now have I?
3. dad: "I'll sell the clubs some kid that actually wants and is good at golf and will use them."
Thanks once again. I guess all those complements you've given me all the past were just lies then.
4. My room being messy
My room wasn't messy. There were just the sleeping bags on the floor that a slept on, Dev's stuff, and my stuffed animals spread about the room. Once Dev packed, I put away the sleeping bags, and piled all the animals it looked clean.
Also, I try to keep my room clean but it's hard when I spend almost everyday up here now, and why do you care it's not YOUR room, it's MY room and maybe I like it this way.
It's sad to know that the only confidence I get for golfing now is from random strangers at a golf range.
Do I want to quit? Yes.
Am I going to quit? No.
Why? Cuz I'm not a QUITTER.
The only reason I did golf really was because when I was young I thought it would get my dad to love me more. As I got older I thought that was silly. Doesn't seem as silly now though. It seems like the only way to live up to his expectations is to golf and be on the pro tour and stuff.
Sorry dad, guess I'm a failure.
Back to the say I guess. Dev came up after awhile and asked if I had a knife. I said know, but told her to be honest, I was really thinking about it, and thinking about it hard. She told me she worries about me- and not in that 'ha ha i worry about you sometimes' way because I'm funny or something.
I'm sorry everyone. I really didn't mean to make you worry. I shouldn't have told you guys I guess, you all have your own problems and enough to worry about.
These last few days, especially when Rayy and Dev were here, I woke up will more self confidence that I've ever had in a long time, and looking forward to what seemed like a great summer of 08. It's amazing how all of that can just disappear in the blink of an eye.
It's hot in my room.
I should have showered today, now I smell like chlorine for school tomorrow, great.
The blemish cream doesn't seem to be working so I guess I'm coming to school ugly too.
I'm tired but I'm too hot to go to sleep.
I guess I should stop making this post even longer seeing that I posted today already.
ily.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
THE BLIMP!
Yay! Today the Good Year Blimp few over my backyard! I dunno why but I always get all excited when it does. For years no matter what I'm doing when I hear it in the sky I run out on the deck and watch it until it disappears from sight. This also means the warm weather is officially here!
Went out and chipped a few golf balls in the backyard like my dad asked me too. This weekend we're planing on going to Dick's to get me some new golf shoes and stuff. Then maybe I'll go to the range. =)
I'm gonna try and get on the High School Golf Team this year. My one friend Ashley O. was on it last year, I practiced with her. I wasn't really all into it that year, I like gave up on golf right before the tryouts so that's why I stunk. But this year will be different. Ashley O. says its really fun and that I better try hard to make the team.
It's a fun goal ya know? A bit of a challenge. Something to add to my busy summer too. I mean, between a job 2 1/2 days a week, going to the rang, going to the golf course, working out, walking the dog, learning how to water ski, learning Spanish (that'll help me a lot in Sophomore Year Spanish 1), getting a scuba license, cutting the lawn, learning to cook better....etc... It's gonna be busy. I've gotta learn a lot of things this year. But I will always find time for you guys, I can't live without you! If I didn't have any friends like you...jeez I can't think about it, let alone want to.
My dad says that if he lands this account at work he'll join a country club. That means he said I can bring a few of you there to swim in the pool! Cool huh?!
We all need to get together at the park or the Rec center or something. I mean ALL of us. Just for one day. One day this summer, forget all the fights we've had, the stupid stuff we did (and I mean the bad stupid stuff not the stupid stuff we normally do), and just talk. We don't really have to do anything.
Tell ya what lets make that a goal for us this summer. Or if you don't want to think of it as a goal think of it as...as a favor for me. You don't know how happy it would make me, you really don't.
Anyone who read that comment on what you think please. What do you think of the goal? Is there any chance of completing it? I think there is, and there will be.
Oh yeah, BLIMP!!
Went out and chipped a few golf balls in the backyard like my dad asked me too. This weekend we're planing on going to Dick's to get me some new golf shoes and stuff. Then maybe I'll go to the range. =)
I'm gonna try and get on the High School Golf Team this year. My one friend Ashley O. was on it last year, I practiced with her. I wasn't really all into it that year, I like gave up on golf right before the tryouts so that's why I stunk. But this year will be different. Ashley O. says its really fun and that I better try hard to make the team.
It's a fun goal ya know? A bit of a challenge. Something to add to my busy summer too. I mean, between a job 2 1/2 days a week, going to the rang, going to the golf course, working out, walking the dog, learning how to water ski, learning Spanish (that'll help me a lot in Sophomore Year Spanish 1), getting a scuba license, cutting the lawn, learning to cook better....etc... It's gonna be busy. I've gotta learn a lot of things this year. But I will always find time for you guys, I can't live without you! If I didn't have any friends like you...jeez I can't think about it, let alone want to.
My dad says that if he lands this account at work he'll join a country club. That means he said I can bring a few of you there to swim in the pool! Cool huh?!
We all need to get together at the park or the Rec center or something. I mean ALL of us. Just for one day. One day this summer, forget all the fights we've had, the stupid stuff we did (and I mean the bad stupid stuff not the stupid stuff we normally do), and just talk. We don't really have to do anything.
Tell ya what lets make that a goal for us this summer. Or if you don't want to think of it as a goal think of it as...as a favor for me. You don't know how happy it would make me, you really don't.
Anyone who read that comment on what you think please. What do you think of the goal? Is there any chance of completing it? I think there is, and there will be.
Oh yeah, BLIMP!!
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