I Am Growing Sleepless and You're Out of Lullabies

I've been very tired lately due to not being able to sleep during the night.

For a few weeks now I've been having fucked up nightmares and all I can remember is like distorted light, and an ominous while figure. Then, every time I wake up from the dreams I feel like I'm in danger and scared and out of the corner of my eye I think I see that damn white figure and I have to turn on my light.

I haven't been able to sleep with it out in weeks because I feel too scared. It almost seems like it'll keep the nightmares away.

Last night I had a horrible one involving my mother in the hospital. Her heat was racing and she was convulsing and I was next to her crying hysterically. It made me worry. =/

Other than the nightmares, life has been pretty good so far.

Been hanging out at the Twist and Shake, I really love it there. =)

Shot at 47 at golf today! Very excited!

After golf Mom, JJ, and myself went to Chick-fil-A and then we watched some Cold Case File together.

Attempted to read Wuthering Heights. and it's also terrible. I can't even understand the one character when he talks, it really is fucking ridiculous. In the end I think I'm going to read one of the required, then A Picture of Dorian Grey, and spark notes the rest.

Played some Sim's on my bothers new TV he got for his room. I haven't played it in years. =p

Now I'll be up half reading Wuthering Heights and half doing computer things. =)

ily.

What's Up?

Lately I've been staying up really late due to nightmares.

When I get really hot at night I have them. =/

And then there's waking up after them, sweating like a pig and then having to go downstairs to grab a few ice packs to cuddle with to keep cool.

So by Father's Day I was over tired.

Played golf with Grandpa though, which was nice.

Dinner was...alright.

My Dad has his family over and I soon ditched them because I couldn't take all the comments they were making behind my Mother's back and how my Dad was joining in on them.

*sigh*

Actually got a goodnight sleep last night though and things started looking way up!

I played the best round of golf in my life so far, which really got me pumping. Then after that I got to go to Jackie's house and we painted nails and swam a bit!

Rayy came over for a while too and we played air hockey on this mini table we had. =p

Mommy and I then watched House Bunny which was pretty good.

Now I'm up in my room chilling with Nortone. =p

ily.

This Is A Creative Post Title.

So yestarday I had golf from 12-5 and all we did was hit balls for all that time straight. My had was killing me.

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But in the end it was fun, I learn something at least that will really help my game. =D

After dinner Mom said that we were going to go to the gas station, drop off the rented movie, then pick up her prescription.

So I drive to Speedway and we go to get gas and the pump isn't working, so we go to the next one and then it says we have to see the cashier and I told him that pump 3 wasn't working and that the next one told me to see him.

He then told me that the credit card had no money on it.

Which is bullshit because it's a credit card and the credit limit on it is sky high. So then he comes out with us and looks at it and then asks if the tank was all the way filled. My Mom had told him that went she asked Dad to get gas while he was out walking the dog he yelled at her that there was no place to get gas.

Apparently there was and he filled up the tank.

*headdesk*

I mean it's funny, but I just can't laugh at it because my Dad had been yelling at my Mother about how much of a dumb ass she was and how he couldn't.

-_-

Drove and dropped off the rented movie then picked up two new ones: The Uninvited and The Bucket List.

The Uninvited was good, I loved the twist at the end. =)

It wasn't really all that scary though, I mean, it did show dead peeps, but I've watched too many scary movies so it's easy to accurately predict when they will pop out.

JJ wanted me to sleep in his room, so I took the second bed by the window.

Everything was all fine and dandy until I started to have this weird ass dream. At first it was all la-de-da fine and dandy and then I don't remember how but everyone that I knew (friends, family, teachers, employees) were all suddenly on fire and screaming and withering in pain and begging for me to help them.

I woke up sweating and really hot and shaking and I had to go downstairs and sit outside for a bit and read a book.

=x

It was scary. =(

Many people gave me huggles via interwebs though so that helped me feel better. =)

Today Grammy, Mom and I went and shopped for this old lady. When we took her food up to her room at the assistant living home on Valley View I wrote her a note for her to find when she came back, hoping that she would have a great day. =p

Grammy asked if I would ever like to do something like that and I said it seemed like it would be fun so I picked up an application for the Elm Croft Assisted Living right down the road from me. =)

Old people FTW.

ily.