This Made My Day

I Really Should Be Asleep

It is now 1:39 on this lovely Sunday night.

I should be asleep but I'm wide awake, many things going through my mind right now.

Ah, I feel a very negatively vibed post coming on, feel free to skip down to the much more happier post about my Sunday under this one blog readers.

There's also a rant that's gonna be in here too...I can feel it...

Attempted to work on the binder for VV, tried to listen to the prowl tours online but it has proven to be impossible to concentrate on. It's so boring to listen to, and each of the prowls are 30-45 minutes long.

I really wish we could have actually gone on the prowl.

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Answered most of the other questions in the binder though.

I could write my journal right now, but I dunno what to say. I'm not good with all this industry and businussy stuff. Really all I got is that Cleveland should use the lake front property for things like shops, and hotels and other such things. Many major cities do that, it seems to bring in some business, and might make people want to move there. =/

Blah.

I asked my Dad for some help, asked him why he thought Cleveland went down and why it's taking us so long to get back up to where we were and stuff.

His answer: Taft.

Well shit, that REALLY helped me, thanks Dad.

*rolls eyes*

This week doesn't seem like it will be a very good week. Getting that creeping feeling of overwhelming on my back.

Which, those of you who knew and remember from last year what that could bring back, although I'm trying my hardest not to let it. Found the object to that childishness and will be giving it to my mother I think.

Cyrus was asking me times he could come over and I told him Tuesday and 7 should be okay but then remembered that I workout then and apparently my mom has an appointment for her arm too, which my dad will be going with her to.

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I'm completely free Wednesday though...

Winter break is coming up, started talking to my dad, telling him how our break is like, 15 days and that I would really like to come back for a few and work in the warehouse of offices.

He said that they were cutting back majorly this month and that he doesn't think I can. =/

Apparently one of our big customers, Chick Master Inc. has gone bankrupt. They had so much sales happening around the world and then they just canceled and everything. Not to mention the top sales rep guy was laid off...

It's like someone just turned the water off or something. My dad's best business for the company so far this year was in October and September and then BAM November hit and everything just stopped.

Damn economy.

What I don't get is that, like, we've seen something like this coming for awhile right? So like, how come we failed at preventing this huge slump from happening?

Blah.

Need to find a way to make money for the holidays and other things.

Thought about shoveling driveways, that would be GREAT for my back huh?

If it were summer I could mow people's lawns...

Was thinking about cleaning my Grammy's and Uncles house's but I dunno...I'd hate to try and scrounge money off of them when they're getting me gifts for the holidays, ya know? =/

Hmmmm...

I'll think of something...

And if any of you suggest robbing a bank JJ's already beat ya to it. =p

Have to stay after school tomorrow to take that essay test...

Got most of the paragraph planned out in my head though, so that's good.

Unless she changes the topic it's on... O.O

It's 2:14 now...

Dammit why can't things like this happen on a Saturday where I DON'T have school the next day.

Meeeeeeeeeeh.

Dad's pestering me about Cyrus has really been getting to my head, but in the sense that if Cyrus asks me out and I say yes he would be in a pissed off mood and hate me or something.

Okay, so he wouldn't hate me, he's my dad, but my dad seems to know how to make my life a living hell (along with everyone else in the house).

Dammit, why do fathers always have to be all big, mean, scary, and negative when it come's to boys?!

And yes, Cyrus is 2 years older than me, which in high school can be a very big difference when it comes to social group, and education and such.

And yes, he'll be going away to college.

But for crying out loud he's making more of a fuss over Cyrus than Zak who's only ambition in life was to lay me and leave.

Ah, the irony in this situation. I sometimes laugh at it.

Debating on whether or not I should just give up sleeping and caffeine my way through the day...

Why do I have this suddenly feeling I have a physics test tomorrow...

Oh boy.

Still haven't found my Spanish book...I should check the lost and found.

Now that I'm done with my rambling and rants lets find the brighter side of all of this...

I can get my mother to help me with my Valley Voyages things tomorrow...

There is still a chance I can work for SWACO during winter break...

As for the economy...well, I dunno, everything gets worse before it gets better.

And I guess it's good that my dad cares, and that all of this is his way of trying to protect me as a father.

I could try and cram 3 hours of sleep in...

Maybe...

Meh.

I guess there aren't only negative things going on in my mind right now. There's friends, a certain someone, snowflakes, and logs on the fire.

*sigh*

Just watch, this will all blow over tomorrow.

Felt good to get it off of my chest though.

I just can't seem to end a post negative now can I?

=p

ily

I Kissed A Girl And I Liked It

Heh, that's a really funny song now.

So, school was okay. History class was of course fun. In art my upside down drawing was good except for the dude's head I had to draw. It looked like a really crappy MySpace pic. XD I'm so putting that on my fridge when we get it back.

Didn't have golf practice today because of the rain. Well, it was optional, but I saw no point in it. Went home on the bus and got home around 2:30ish. It was so weird being home that early. =p

Hung out around the house. Dad and I went and got pizza, and then we headed out to pick up Zak and Devvy Chan to go to Ryan's bonfire. Together it was Devvy Chan, Zak, Peaches, Ryan, Myself, and Ryan's brothers 11 friends that were going to sleep over that night. I felt so bad for him mom.

Went swimming, and then we hung out around the fire. Talked about things, did some stupid stuff, then went up to Ryan's bedroom and did even stupider stuff. Then we watched Comedy Central and youtube videos.

Oh, and remember how I told you guys my dad thought I was popping pills? I didn't put it in a blog posties so here's a recap: I asked my dad if he did drugs in HS and he said no, he got fucked up in college cuz there was too much shit goin on in HS. Then the next morning I was eating tic-tacs and he accused me of popping pills.

Yeah.

Well today it gets even better.

On the phone before he got home he said this: "Now Ashley, I don't belive you will do drugs, but I don't believe in coincidences either, and I think at that party, somebody, preferably Ryan, is going to get high tonight."

Ryan I will apologize for my dad being such a dumbass.

Soooooo lets see...NOW my dad thinks I'm:

-Doing drugs
-Watching Porn
and
-Turing into a 'Gothic Bloodsucker'

*sniff* I'm so proud *sniff* he has so much trust in me! *wipes tears with hankie*

Last night was a blast though. It was nice I guess that Ryan and I are on terms somewhat, and I'm really glad Zak and him are friends again.

*sigh*

It was so a night that made me think "If HS is like this now...college should be fucking CRAZY!"

O.O

ily.

Family First

Yeah...that's what everybody says, but in most situations I'd put you guys first. Your more fun anyways...

Family reunion was boooooooring, Got car sick on the ride there and everyone was either way older than me or way younger than me so there was not really anyone to talk to. Couldn't go swimming because there are just some times during the months that us girls can't. The water slide wasn't there, and neither were the cows.

=(

So I sat around on the monkey bars and tried to work on some of my book and failed. Too noisy and stuff. Later on I played football catch with my dad. I threw some pretty good spirals and caught the ball each time it was thrown to me! Some of my cousins joined in too, and then my dad had to leave early to go drinking with some buddies and they took the ball. I followed them but they said they didn't want a GIRL playing with them. Assholes. So when one over threw the ball I caught it and threw it at the back of the one dude's head, which knocked him over, before leaving to grab my Ipod.

There was a corn field to the side of the house so I walked through it and sat in it for awhile. Nobody came looking for me, so obviously I wasn't missed. Had a burger but that was it. I wasn't feeling very hungry. We did the family photo and I got yelled at because I was standing too far back with the TALL people so they had me sit with the kiddies. Then I was to tall there so they yelled at me to sit in a chair, and then I was blocking someones face, and then I was standing too far outside the photo, and then when they finally put my ass somewhere they yelled at me for not smiling. I hate getting pics taken of me to begin with, let alone family photos....

Had a reverse raffle, which is like a raffle but when your name gets called you're out and you lost your chance to win the money. Turns out my cousin Todd's son won. Heh, he's only 1. The assholes that wouldn't let me play catch were pissed and glared at me when I laughed at them.

Drove the golf cart around. The brat child of the family, Kaitlyn, was driving around full speed doing doughnuts and sharp turns and when we changed seat behind the barn when I got to drive Aunt Jonie came screaming over and yelling at us for going too fast, and for the turns and when she asked who was diving Kaitlyn pointed to me and ran off. I told Auntie J that it was Kaitlyn driving and we changed seat behind the barn but she said that she saw ME driving and yelled at me.

I guess I'm the stupid, little, lying, girl of the family. Congrats to me.

On the way home we got ice cream. They didn't have sprinkles, and I ate like, two bites before giving it to JJ, still wasn't hungry.

Was freezing on the car ride home and still am. Wearing Zak's jacket but I'd like him to be hugging me more than the jacket right now. *sigh* Tomorrow he says he'll play football catch with me at Devvy Chan's party. Everyone who comes can play, I'll bring the football. Wonder who all is coming.

I know Sami can't come, and Rayy is out of town. Peaches has work and is at her cousins house so that probably means that Ryan isn't going to come either since they never seem to be able to go anywhere without each other to hang on.

Hope Jess can't make it to her own party! It'd be kinda funny that she'd miss it. I wonder if she has an accent!

Gonna call Zak now.

ily.

You Just Lost The Game...

...And I won the game! FIRST PLACE IN THE CHAMPS BABY WHOOO!!! I kicked all the guys asses and I even had to play with the AHSP!!!! O.o It. Was. Epic.

I'm so happy lol.

Had my favorite chicken for dinner! Lemon peppered chicken with some more of the awesome corn mmmmmmm....*drools* So....so good....

Went online for awhile, was on and off because I had a headache, and then talked to Zak before taking a shower. Now I'm here.

Work tomorrow and then golfing after.

Thursday going over to Devvy Chan's for the day.

Friday Zak coming over

Saturday family reunion. It's gonna be at my cousin's house, which is actually awesome. Why? Well she has a pool that's like 20 feet deep, and lives on this huge plot of farm land. Also, there a freaking cows across her street!! I see them every time I go there. =)

Sunday golfing and Dev said something about a partay? For Jessica coming over I'm guessing?

Oh guys guess what I found, the R.J. 2.0!! Heh, haven't seen this in awhile. I'm gonna look through it sometime. Take a walk down memory lane. =p

Well that's about it. Finished To Kill A Mocking Bird, so now all I have to do is clean my room and stuff.

ily.