Year 1

It's almost all over. My first year of college. All I gotta do is pass my econ test, and I'll be in the gold. And what am I doing? Fucking procrastinating. Hamilton doesn't help either. He demands attention and demands it NOW. Maybe I'll bring him into the exam... 120pts of evil.... I hope this bitch gets fired...she's a good person...but she is a TERRIBLE teacher. And I don't know how to study for a class I've never understood, nor liked... Oh well... It's gonna storm...I'm excited. It looks like a good one. =) Damn the not-spaces. Ruining my blogging format stuffs...

Shabalabadingdong

Woah. I did read about the new interface. But now that I'm actually seeing it I'm like O.O Friday was a pretty freaking awesome night. Saturday was great too. Went on an adventure and got a nice present for myself ;D Devlyn slept over Saturday night and then this morning we went to my work buddies martial arts place to take a woman's self defense class. Where we then heard about the all woman's jiu jitsu class they were gonna start in June. Which would also be free for 3 months. So Devlyn and I will be ninjas this summer. =) Very excited for con. It'll be nice to hang out with Rayy and Andy. I'm interested in hanging with all the guys she hangs with too. The weekend will be fun. =) Excited for tattoo. Though I'm juggling with the idea of adding a little more to it. At the very least shading. I'm also thinking about what type of crescent shape I want. Going to start looking for sky diving classes too. I want to take my Dad with me. I feel it'd be cool to do. I also wanna ride a hot air balloon this summer. =) Hmmmm... Finals are coming up. (eek.) Teeter-tottering on whether or not I'll pass my econ class...meh. Stupid shitty teachers. I hope my terrible review screws with her salary or something. I hope everyone else gave her a terrible review too. Meh. I kinda want my Mikey right now. I'm feeling sad. Annoying reason is I don't know why. Maybe it's just my headache screwing with me (I think it's from my sudden lack of caffeine...that's what happens when ya drink a crap ton and then stop...damn withdrawal...). But it's like I start to tear up and I'm thinking to myself "WHY ARE YOU CRYING?! NOTHING BAD HAPPENED TODAY. GET A HOLD OF YOUR EFFING SELF." Damn emotions. Always screwing with me at the best of times. I wanna start eating better. I just don't really know how yet. We'll figure it out. Just gotta keep pushing on. And why the hell isn't anything spaced??? Damn bugs...

Boo Yah

I love how my blog is really just a venue for my teenage angst. =p

Time for a happy post.

Ready?

*deep breath*

I JUST GOT THE BEST PARKING SPOT EVAH!

Shablam.

Also, my boobs look really nice and x10 bigger in the shirt that I'm wearing today. =x

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I would get a black crescent moon with a doctors shot going into it...but could never tell my mother that half of my struggles in life have been due to her medical issues.

TomTom suggested I get a swing on it. It's cute, makes it a bit different. I dunno though. I feel like it would ruin it in the end. Like the flow of it, and the serious of it.

At least I got out of a long Geo lab today I guess.

Asshole.

Yes. When you decided to get a tattoo I started becoming more adamant about the idea of me getting one.

No. I didn't just decide to get one when you decided to get one.

As a matter of fact mine DOES have a lot of meaning. It's just not spelled out like yours.

MAYBE other than me simply loving the moon and feeling that it describes me it used to be my muse and give me hope all those years ago when I used to slit my wrists.

MAYBE whenever I look at the moon it takes me back to the memories of that time in my life and reminds me to keep strong.

MAYBE it takes me back to those memories as a kid when I depended on the moon light to fight the monsters away and reminds me of a time of innocence in my life.

Where I was sad because I didn't get McDonalds or worried about not missing my morning cartoons. Not sad because I have to watch my mother get sicker and weaker in life and worried about my little brother and his feet and the piling medical bills and our tight budget and how my Dad is getting older and my future and making a living.

My tattoo is simple because it takes me back to a time that was simple. My tattoo will be black and not blue or white or any other solid color because it also takes me back to a dark time in my life.

My tattoo is the moon because it gives me strength and I feel I am the moon. Sometimes I'm growing and getting full while others I'm breaking down. What matters is that I keep going and shining the light that's given to me.






That sounds super lame.

Rawr. You've never been a poop head like this. So I'll forgive you.

Doesn't mean I can't be a little angry though.

Tats

I feel like they're becoming more and more popular and on campus I've come to notice how many people actually have one (or more) of them. At the very least, pretty much everyone in my close circle of friends has one or is going to get one.

Erin has hers. Mikey is getting his done probably next week. Rachel is planning on getting a few, and Devlyn has wanted wings on her back since she was in middle school.

I've always thought about getting a tattoo but have been afraid to consider one. I think they're a great form of art and I love hearing the stories or meaning behind them. However, it's a permanent thing, and many jobs look down on them.

I'm indecisive at the best of times, and I'm a business major. Both two no-nos.

For a little over a year now, I've been thinking about what I would get if I were ever to get a tattoo.

I don't have a lot of things I absolutely love or any really big experiences in my life that I want to remind myself of in that way.

But after I started thinking about it I really have come to find something that I've always loved, adored, and cherished since I was a baby Ashley.

That something is the moon.

I think it's absolutely gorgeous. When I was little I would wake up at 3AM on the nights that it was full and just stare out the window simply because I loved the blue of the light and how it shined on everything.

It's even the 'planet' for my Cancer sign, which I love as well.

The moon is something that I just think describes be perfectly and in the end, means a lot to me. It's something I would like to always have with me, and I wish I could show it to the world.

A tattoo is one way I can do that.

I'm planning on waiting until I turn 19 just to time test my decison to make sure I'm really 100% for this. And then if I am, I want it before my family reunion so I can show it off to them. =p

My idea is just a simple black crescent moon, facing outward on my right shoulder/neck area. It wouldn't be super big, just a small moon.

Only thing that concerns me is that I sunburn there easily and often...

Meh.

Well, we'll see how it goes. =)

Roller Coaster

Emotionally life has been like a roller coaster. Been getting down in the dumps lately, but now I'm going back up (since I don't think I could go down any further).

Had some great friends and family help me start the up trend though. =)

Today is mine and Mikey's two year anniversary. =DDDDD

I went over to his house at 6AM with a supply of paper, markers, and muffins. After hiding the muffins (which I must say, Giant Eagle has a shitty selection of right now...) I made a trail of clues for him to follow to get to them.

Scared his mom shitless, she thought I was someone robbing the house... =p

Been making plans for the better and going to start putting them in motion. Gonna get my shit together in econ, and start exercising again. I really wanna be in shape again and to feel good at least physically.

And I want my fucking abs back. Even if it's just a little bit of tone.

Gotta keep up with Mikey and Devlyn!

Today is Wednesday too...my Subway day! =D

Miss. Rayy needs to tell me about her con plans...so I can decide whether I can go wiff her or Devlyn... >.>

:D