Tats

I feel like they're becoming more and more popular and on campus I've come to notice how many people actually have one (or more) of them. At the very least, pretty much everyone in my close circle of friends has one or is going to get one.

Erin has hers. Mikey is getting his done probably next week. Rachel is planning on getting a few, and Devlyn has wanted wings on her back since she was in middle school.

I've always thought about getting a tattoo but have been afraid to consider one. I think they're a great form of art and I love hearing the stories or meaning behind them. However, it's a permanent thing, and many jobs look down on them.

I'm indecisive at the best of times, and I'm a business major. Both two no-nos.

For a little over a year now, I've been thinking about what I would get if I were ever to get a tattoo.

I don't have a lot of things I absolutely love or any really big experiences in my life that I want to remind myself of in that way.

But after I started thinking about it I really have come to find something that I've always loved, adored, and cherished since I was a baby Ashley.

That something is the moon.

I think it's absolutely gorgeous. When I was little I would wake up at 3AM on the nights that it was full and just stare out the window simply because I loved the blue of the light and how it shined on everything.

It's even the 'planet' for my Cancer sign, which I love as well.

The moon is something that I just think describes be perfectly and in the end, means a lot to me. It's something I would like to always have with me, and I wish I could show it to the world.

A tattoo is one way I can do that.

I'm planning on waiting until I turn 19 just to time test my decison to make sure I'm really 100% for this. And then if I am, I want it before my family reunion so I can show it off to them. =p

My idea is just a simple black crescent moon, facing outward on my right shoulder/neck area. It wouldn't be super big, just a small moon.

Only thing that concerns me is that I sunburn there easily and often...

Meh.

Well, we'll see how it goes. =)

Roller Coaster

Emotionally life has been like a roller coaster. Been getting down in the dumps lately, but now I'm going back up (since I don't think I could go down any further).

Had some great friends and family help me start the up trend though. =)

Today is mine and Mikey's two year anniversary. =DDDDD

I went over to his house at 6AM with a supply of paper, markers, and muffins. After hiding the muffins (which I must say, Giant Eagle has a shitty selection of right now...) I made a trail of clues for him to follow to get to them.

Scared his mom shitless, she thought I was someone robbing the house... =p

Been making plans for the better and going to start putting them in motion. Gonna get my shit together in econ, and start exercising again. I really wanna be in shape again and to feel good at least physically.

And I want my fucking abs back. Even if it's just a little bit of tone.

Gotta keep up with Mikey and Devlyn!

Today is Wednesday too...my Subway day! =D

Miss. Rayy needs to tell me about her con plans...so I can decide whether I can go wiff her or Devlyn... >.>

:D

High Hopes

I never have high hopes for anything and try not to get really excited about things that may happy in the future. The reason being because if I do, and those things don't happen or meet expectations, I fall from those high hopes, crash, and burn.

Even if it was something that other people would think is silly or small.

Though right now even I can't understand why I'm so upset. I'm kind of acting like a child.

I mean sure, I've looked forward to doing something like it for years. And there are rational reasons why it's not happening. And it's not like I'll never get the chance to do it again.

I dunno.

Maybe it was just bad timing.

High hopes crashing mixed with my erupting volcano of emotions (a.k.a. Ashley's every so monthly 'cry time').

We also ran out of milk so I couldn't eat my cereal.

Meh.

Some good things happened today.

-I started class scheduling (though things weren't so smooth in that department either)
-Work was okay
-I get to dog sit for the woman I also baby sit for(getting paid nicely) AND I got her the most awesomest birthday present (can't wait to see the look on her face. It's a gift certificate for a 1hr massage along with a basket of yummy smelling soaps and lotions)
-Dance Moms was on (next weeks episode looks like it's gonna be freakin crazy)
-I got to hug Mikey today

I guess they balance out.


Rawr.

=/ Humph

I've always been pretty content with life.

But now.

Just being content is starting not to be enough anymore.

All I'm doing is living.

I don't have any real purpose right now.

A lot of people have told me that's what it feels for a lot of kids my age.

I hope so.